#jaymerrickkin

All I did was make things worse. All I wanted was to save everyone from the operator. I wanted to save Alex from himself. I wanted to help Tim. I wanted to save Jessica. But I couldn't. I fucking couldn't. All I did was bring it BACK to them, and made shit worse.

But, the worse one is how I brought back Tim to that fucking hospital. I shouldn't have done that. I really shouldn't have. I shouldn't have posted all that shit. I shouldn't have been who I was.

80 something entrys. I made just more than 80 entrys, fucking up and trying to fix everything, just for me to die and for Tim to finish what I brought back up. What the fuck am I even doing? He shouldn't have fixed what I brought back. He shouldn't have to deal with any or this at all.

And Alex, god he didn't know what he was getting himself into either. None of this is his fault. I know that. He wanted to save us from slender in a way that would end us out of our misery faster. He wanted to save us all from what he had to experience. It's not his fault in a way.

None of this is anyone's fault other than mine. If I didn't start the channel, maybe everything will be okay. Maybe things would be alright with Tim and Jessica. Maybe Brian would be alive. But, I'll never know that for sure.

Jay Merrick #📷📼 (if possible)

jay merrick board for anon with themes of loneliness and rosswood park! i hope you enjoy because i have literally never seen marble hornets in my whole entire life hsudhfngj

So, I know I'm not on here often. May or may not be my first post, I don't remember. But, I remember going insane.

Like, I remember going insane from the operator. I remember seeing him everywhere, even though he wasn't actually there. I'm convinced that is apart of the slender sickness now. Im not 100% sure.

But, the dreams I had, and seeing him..it drove me mad. I understand why Alex did what he did on a certain level. And, I forgive you Alex.

And, Tim, I'm sorry for everything. I should've listened to you. I wasn't all the way there though, clearly. I hope you're doing well now.

When I'm in the "middle" of switching hyper fixations, I'll feel empty even though I'm obsessing over 2 things at the same time. And that's because right now its like 2 of my highest kind are fighting each other.

I have no idea if anyone else feels this way too but, let's say my no.1 highest kin is Dipper from Gravity Falls, and I fictionkin jay Merrick from marble Hornets.

In this scenario I'm hyper fixated on Gravity Falls and I'm slowly becoming hyper fixated on marble Hornets.

The 2 kins are like fighting to be no.1 in some sort of way and it makes me feel empty. Like my soul feels like theres nothing there.

I'm not the best at explaining things but this is the best way I could explain it atm. If anyone else feels this way at all please let me know because I feel alone rn.

(Please tag as #⚠️👁❌ I checked and it is free to use)

To: Alex Kralie (Marble Hornets)

From: Jay, Brian, another Alex, and a Jessica fictive