#ipseity

The state of being oneself, one's unique identity and sense of self.

Just him…

If I become too isolated for too long, there is a noticeable degradation in my connection with reality. I've never experienced a full psychotic episode, but if I go weeks or months without so much as leaving my house, I can be triggered briefly into delusions. It's unpleasant, yes. It's not good to have the world disappear from my perception.

But with engulfment, I disappear, and that is so much worse.

With isolation, it's only my perception of the things around me that is altered. For everyone else, they remain identical. And despite any momentary distress I may face, it will still be the same once I come back down to Earth.

With engulfment, it's not only my perception of something. The thing itself, me, my personality, my existence, my soul -- it is consumed. It disappears. It is changed, altered, destroyed. The boundaries of my soul are blurred, ebbed, then eaten, like a spider liquefying its prey before sucking out its guts. I am crushed and smeared. I am swallowed, digested; I cease to exist.

Wrapping up Part 5 of Chapter 1! Even when faced with his deity, (surely she is,) he cannot help but ramble.

ipseity (n.) - "personal identity, individuality, selfhood," 1650s, from Latin ipse "self" + -ity "quality of being"

I am proposing a category of identities called ipseities: labels that encompass the entire self, rather than solely referring to one's gender, age, species, or other subidentities, though subidentities can easily be directly extrapolated from ipseities by changing the suffix.

Maybe you identify as a certain xenogender, for example, but you feel that its concept makes up more of your identity than just gender. Perhaps this would be better classified as an ipseity.

myhouse.wadseity

myhouse.wad + -seity

an ipseity term that describes myhouse.wad encompassing ones entire slef/ones entire sense of self being interwoven with myhouse.wad; an ipseity term centered around myhouse.wad