I've had this blog for a year apparently, which is crazy because like-- okay, let me set the scene (this post got long so there's a cut here, mind the warnings):
My source releases on a quarterly basis. I turned this blog into my own personal blog (instead of our collective one) in July of 2023 according to my post history, and a month later, a new source release happened. I cannot EXPLAIN how I even managed to post normally while that was going on. I was doing so bad that other alters reached out to our friends like "hey if Roman's acting weird he thinks he's dying that's why" which is a whole other can of worms that I can't reveal much about without revealing my source. Suffice to say, ego death is a bitch.
Today, I went through my post history and realized there's a notable gap in original posts, one in late July, and then the next in early September. I know its because of this event in August, and its almost comedic to me that the post in September is still my most popular. I made this blog shortly after beginning to have a delusion that I was going to die as an alter. Which to me is a delusion because alters can't die, not in this system at least. Its so strange that even though I was so utterly convinced, I still made this blog my own. I don't know if it was some last gasp for connection or maybe, I really knew I wasn't going to die.