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Kabedon! Favorite pinned to the wall moment?

Until We Meet Again

When I first read this prompt, my mind was flooded with images of this scene.

When I first watched UWMA, I had only ever seen two other BLs and thus, this series was actually game changing for me.

Thinking back on it, I believe this scene was the first indication that UWMA was going to be like nothing I had ever seen before.

Sure the first scene of the series is heartbreaking, but it's the emotional catharsis of this...uh...pinned to the wall moment that really sold UWMA, and by extension the rest of Thai BLs, to me.

Also, the acting was so on point here. You can really feel Pharm's desperation.

P'Korn...  If we die and we are born again do you think we will find each other again?

I posted!

For my magical/witch AU, chapter 2 has just been uploaded! 

I’ve talked about how I love the communication between Dean and Pharm. When Pharm says he doesn’t want to have breakfast with Dean anymore - not because he doesn’t enjoy it, but because he wants Dean to eat with his brother and sister. Because the relationship with siblings is important and Pharm cares about it.

Or the way that Dean got a little too handsy in the kitchen and Pharm asked him to stop, gently reprimanded him to never do that again, and then Dean apologized. And when Pharm realized he was truly sorry, they hugged and Pharm told him it was okay. 

Or the way Alex kept hitting on Pharm despite Pharm continuously turning him down. When he blatantly hit on Pharm in front of Dean, Dean didn’t get jealous or angry at Pharm in any way, he trusted Pharm and told Alex to eff off, basically. No one fought. Dean believed that Pharm was genuinely trying to get Alex to leave him alone and Dean protected his boyfriend. 

There’s no stupid jealousy and no bad miscommunication. Just genuine love and respect for one another and it’s amazing.

I also really like how In and Korn are with each other. Korn isn’t super romantic, and it takes a while for him to fall for In (or... to allow himself to fall for In, maybe, is more like it). In tries to get Korn to say and do romantic things, and he will eventually, in his own way. He’ll do things that will make In happy, but in an honest way. He promises that he will always find In in the next life. And says they don’t need a red threat because he will always be there... stuff like that. I love that. He supports his boyfriend and wants to protect him.

But a trope they subvert is that they’re both really into each other. A lot of times in these shows, one person is more into the other and there’s usually some... not quite fighting, but resistance? Like, one guy will kiss the other, and the other will try and push the first away and stop it. And it always kind of rubs me wrong when it looks like they aren’t into the physical stuff. When it’s just shy, it’s better... but I still don’t like when one of the pair is uncomfortable and the other doesn’t stop. 

So it’s really refreshing to see that both In and Korn instigate the kissing and physical affection. They’re both really interested in being physical with one another. In is always sneaking kisses. But Korn will start kisses as well, like the “You call that a kiss?” scene in the grass. The way they kiss one another at the beach when they get together. THE FACT THAT they BOTH asked “Will you be my boyfriend” at literally the same time??? 

They’re both so into each other. And I just love that. 

First, let’s talk about Korn. He’s the son of a mob loan shark. People know who he is and they’re scared of him. And maybe rightly so, considering his family and his stoic, cold, unfriendly demeanor. But what are the odds that, at first, his family caused people to avoid him and then he just started putting up a front to keep people away? Because if you don’t try to make friends with anyone, you won’t be hurt when they’re too afraid of you to be friends.

I am willing to bet that when he was younger, he tried to befriend other kids at school and it eventually failed every time. Their parents told them not to hang out with him or their friends warned them against being near him. Basically, the exact same thing that happened when In walked past him and his friends were like, “He’s the son of a mobster, stay away from him!”

Korn is a loner. He delves into his books and stories. He stays away from people. Books are probably his escape from the harsh reality that is his world. He can imagine a different life, one where people aren’t afraid of him, one where his dad doesn’t have his whole life planned out, one where he can be himself and be loved and have friends and feel safe. Books are safe, books don’t judge. Those characters, they can be his friends, their stories can be his story. He can just live vicariously through them and stay in his lane in reality.

Then Intouch walks on into his life. This confident, adorable, sweet faced boy. This young man who was warned to stay away from Korn, who ignored his friends, who ignored all sense of reason and logic. He looked straight past Korn’s walls and said, “I’m coming in.” 

Korn tried to resist In, he really did. But despite appearances, Korn does not have a heart of stone. He probably thinks that if he waits it out, In will get bored of this game and find someone else to flirt with. Someone safer, someone nicer, someone freer. But In just does not give up. He follows and flirts with Korn for at least a month, if not longer. Eventually... Korn just stops fighting it.

He let’s himself have this. Let’s himself have one sweet, kind, nice, soft, warm thing in his life. In brings him food and drinks. In waits for him. In smiles at him and is open and unafraid. In wants to take the time to get to know him, to see past the surface, and do things for him. In wants to care for Korn and take care of Korn. 

Suddenly, In is like a flower, bursting its way up between cracks in the pavement. Fighting for life, bringing a little brightness to a dark, dingy city street. In is like the sun and Korn just wants to feel the warmth on his skin. Maybe ... maybe he deserves this. 

He gives in. He starts to let him in. His defenses are down. And just like a crack in a dam, the water starts as a trickle, until the crack spreads and the wall breaks and everything starts pouring out. Bit by bit, Korn let’s In break down his walls and makes him feel safe. Makes him feel like one of the characters in his stories. Makes him feel like he can just Be. Just be the young man he is. Forget about his harsh reality. 

In takes him to the beach, and they have fun. Korn probably can’t even remember the last time he had carefree fun. Maybe when he and his brothers were very small, playing in the street with other kids in the neighborhood. Before... 

Sunshine and happiness are now a part of Korn’s life. Kindness and warmth. All because of In, this beautiful soul that loves Korn for some reason. Loves him with all his sweet, honest heart. And how could Korn not fall in love with him? In was brave enough to ignore all the bullshit, to take the time to get to know Korn, to accept him for who he is, not for the person everyone else thought he was, or the person his dad wants him to be.

And for this glorious moment in his life, Korn lets himself dream. Let’s himself believe that if they can just hold on... just wait it out... just stay strong for a little while longer... They can be free. They can run away and escape and be together. And nothing can get in their way.

Except... 

Except they can’t. Because loving Korn means In has to suffer. Where In brings light into Korn’s world, Korn feels that he brings darkness to In’s world. He brings pain and suffering and fear. In’s father beats him, and Korn knows he’s the cause of it. He knows that, for all his dreaming, there’s no way they can truly escape reality. Maybe one day In can be free. One day, maybe In can get away from the pain and suffering of the world, he’s brave, strong, resilient. He’s so much stronger than Korn. He will survive this world. And he would be better off without Korn holding him back.

Do you think... Korn knew that In had a group project and would be working that day? Do you think he waited on campus to walk In home? Do you think he was hanging around watching from afar? 

How do you think he knew In had a bad headache? He walked by and saw him with his head down? Heard his friends talking?

Did he speak with In first, then go get him some water and medicine? Did he just happen to have it on him? Was he already bringing water to In when he saw him laying down on the table? 

How tenderly he strokes In’s head, pets his hair, touches his shoulder, holds his hand... Korn just wants to take care of In the way In always tries to take care of Korn. In always wants to feed him and make sure he’s eaten. Wants to cook for him. Wants to make him smile and take him to do fun things.

“Mm?”

“P’Kooooorn!” He stumbles a little, tipsy.

“Hmm?” Korn looks down at In, wondering what he wants, and making sure the younger man was still walking properly.

“P’Korn! P’Korn! P’Korn! P’Ko--”

“In. What is it?” Korn holds his shoulders and looks into the smaller man’s eyes. They’re cloudy from his inebriation.

“I love you.” In smiles broadly up at Korn and all at once, Korn feels both amused and exasperated. He sighs and rolls his eyes, but his heart feels light and a smile turns up his lips. When In hums and pouts and looks at Korn a little clearer, it breaks the senior’s silence.

“P loves In,” Korn says warmly and kisses the top of his head. 

In beams up at him again, happy as can be. “Yay! Thank you, P’Korn.” 

“Why thanks?” Korn winds his arm around In’s shoulders, guiding him along the sidewalk once again, heading towards their condo.

In sighs dreamily and leans into Korn’s side, “For loving In.” 

Korn shakes his head and rubs In’s shoulder. He knows that he’s the one who should be thankful. Thankful that this sweet, kind, caring soul could love Korn, despite everything. Loving In was the easiest thing in the world, it was impossible not to love him. Loving Korn was much harder, and Korn would be thankful every day that In decided to carry that burden.

He ruffles In’s hair and sighs, unable to believe his luck. That In could provide a shining light in the darkness of Korn’s life. “We’re almost home.” 

“Okay,” In nods, a carefree smile on his lips.