Truth is , you were never going to be enough for him . You are not the person he thinks about when hes having the best time of his life while you're away, you're only the person he goes to when life gets a bit grey. You're not his first option, his second, or third, but that's ok if he changes you a bit , tweaks your personality then maybe, just maybe you will be his fourth choice. You were never beautiful in his eyes , only decent looking from time to time. You were too loud, your family probably scared the hell out of him . You were too opinionated, not 'motherly' enough. You were smart but not as smart as he is . You were independent but still needed him for validation, to make sure you did things correctly . You were confident once until he brought up your insecurities that you've worked so hard to get rid of.
But here's the thing, he has no fucking idea what you've been through in your life. Hell, if he had lived a day in your life on a decent day he would crumble three hours in. He may have made you feel like the smallest person in the world, the weakest most neediest person ever , but babygirl you should know that you're STRONG. Stronger than any of these half assed men out here. You are love. And love is messy and unpredictable. Love is free and limitless. Its gentle and chaotic. It's a storm and a calm. Love is you.
Some day someone is going to look at you and embrace your Love. Treat you like love, with love. Think of you on the best days of their lives Hold you near and whisper poetry while admiring your beauty. Until then, I want you to be happy . To be glad that you've gotten so far. To remind yourself that you are the strongest person you know .
