#innerworld stuff

Con: my forms r also somewhat hit or miss because, if I try 2 alter my appearance 2 much, my body will just, like, force-shift in2 1 of my more focused forms but keep some of the changes I was trying 2 make, so I still get limited here & there. :p

Pro: Genderfluidity!

Con: STILL CAN’T GET BIGGER ANTLERS!!!

Pro: Even tho I make clothes in headspace already, most clothing from other headmates or stuff I just make 4 me, myself, & I will fit well!

Con: Clothing adds weird pressure that some of my forms get pained over??? The fuck?????

Pro: Drawing me ain’t very difficult since I can b whatever usually!

Con: Frequent changes (or involuntary 1s) can agitate me.

Pro: Changing my skin 2 deer fluff makes me feel safe & covered even under clothing, especially when I shift in2 a form w/ less traditionally sexuaIised anatomy and can just sort of not b weary of having a body. (SexuaI trauma makes me feel exposed by just having a body, but less human forms feel safer!!!)

They are not always voluntary constructs, nor is it easy to "change" what happens within innerworld. Someone with a stronger imagination may find it easy visualize such large scale places, but they can appear randomly and in reference to alters and trauma.

They are not an exercise because not every system consciously makes it. They just happen to exist in order to house parts that don't front or need to step back from front.

They are often very real to the brain due to the nature of systems. If alters look a certain way in innerworld or have memories related to innerworld, then innerworlds are as real as that aspect of systems.

STOPPP- I JUST WATCHED A SPIDER CRAWL OUT OF IMMORTAL MAN/SYS’S EAR UP FRONT-

then we heard Victor say "what the fuck?!"

sorry Victor. Henry needs to make sex weird or he meows sadly.

Don't let them think/say I don't do anything productive. Made each of our rooms with what we had in the Sims - I need to get some more packs, but they turned out fairly well, I'm pleased with them.

[Orion (top left), Celeste (middle top)l, Atlas (top right), Cosmo (middle left), Raven (middle right), Jupiter (third row alone)Eris (bottom left), and the main room with mouse's botanical garden(bottom right)]

How do you estimate age when you're talking about a person native to a planet where the years are longer than Earth's? And with time flowing faster on that planet than on Earth, how do you handle it when someone goes back and forth between Earth and that other planet?

Makes me glad our innerworld and the outerworld are more or less connected, timewise. We can stretch it a little - connect with Jas in the innerworld but she's busy so we try again a moment later outerworld time and hours later innerworld time. And sometimes we check in and it's been a few days since we've checked and they're still watching the same movie/doing the same thing they were last time we checked. This goes the other way too - sometimes they'll check in on us and it'll be a bad time and so they check back in a few hours later for us and only a moment later for them. Per tests, the most we can stretch this out in either direction is about a couple Earth months of experienced time, local to the Earth time of the main universe of the paracosm.

And there's one further wrinkle in all of this, relating specifically to portals. When you go through a portal, your body is broken down inside and reformed as you leave based on the pattern of it that exists in the Void. This normally isn't an issue - if you stick to your own universe. Which Jas doesn't, nor does Doc. (Though Doc we don't even try to estimate his age.) When you leave your home universe, a copy of your pattern is placed in the Void of the universe you go to. You use that when you teleport in that universe. But when you come back, you get reformed based on the pattern of you when you left. So if you go and spend months in another universe, as Jas did a lot growing up, you come back into a body that hasn't aged at all. But you still, heart and mind and soul, have the lived experience of being that other age.

Kinda like Narnia - the Pevensies grew up into adults in Narnia before coming back to Earth as children again.

So some of our ages are more just educated guesses than anything else lol.