#innerworlds

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In complex dissociative disorders, headspaces/innerworlds are often defense mechanics a young child comes up with to feel safe. But, for you, it might just be somewhere to hang out with your headmates! Both are normal experiences, and should be appreciated!

Shoutout to:

Funny headspace moments, like inside jokes and such

Violence of some sort, whether "cartoonish" violence or real violence (we have experience with this, shoot us an ask if you're in a similar situation or need advice)

Sad moments, like headmates going dormant

Happy moments, such as getting to hug your loved ones

Anything else I missed!

Headspaces can be full of whimsy, joy, grief, and every emotion in between. Take some time today to appreciate yours, too, if you have one!

Stay safe!

They’re not physical locations that system members actually live & walk around in, but the brain may make them perceive it that way.

When we front, we can “remember” what happened in our innerworld while we were there. Since we share a brain, we all have the same “storyline” there, which has created consistent “memories” from within our innerworld over the years.

We’ve had things happen there that have helped us process & recover from things that happened in the outerworld. (It’s why it’s used as a therapeutic technique.)

There’s a fine line with it. It’s possible to rely too heavily on the innerworld to escape the stress of this life, which, for many CDD systems, was the only way they could survive. Once it’s safe to do so, it is important to draw up a healthy distinction between innerworld reality and physical reality. But, on the other hand, entirely denying the legitimacy of innerworld events can greatly hinder healing.

Oftentimes, innerworld happenings are metaphorical. They occur because there’s something the brain/system needs to work through. For example, a “physical fight” occurring within the innerworld may represent clashing morals between two system members, and signify that the misalignment needs to be addressed.

Helloooo and thank for the ask.

I've asked myself that question more than once. It's a scary implication: being alone in this big empty universe. But once I understood shifting a lil' better, it became a lot less scary.

Here's something to chew on:

You’re not inventing people. You’re meeting versions of them.

Scripting doesn't make your world fake. Scripting is just tuning you to a version that fits you better. Everyone around you still has thoughts of their own. They still dread going to work tomorrow, they still watch rereuns of Friends for the 500th time even tho it sucks. People will stay people.

I suppose loneliness would only show up if you assume it to be that way. Much in the same way that a depressed non-shifter will accidentally manifest less friends. But I don't think that's what you're doing.

If anything, shifting will bring you closer to others in a way that is more purposeful.

And the fact you're wrestling with this tells me your mind is quite sharp. You're seeing the bigger picture here. That's good. Put that energy towards attracting the things you want—not the things you don't.

I hope I was able to reassure you of some things.

In sum: You are not alone. Don't be afraid of your power.

Sguardi animi

Due frammenti d’anima, due istanti sospesi.

Nel primo, uno sguardo allo specchio svela la fatica di nascondere ciò che riaffiora.

Nel secondo, il gesto di dare diventa peso, e il nutrimento si tinge di sacrificio.

Sono volti che non parlano, ma raccontano tutto: il silenzio di chi tiene dentro,