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I am scared. Out of my mind scared. Like I'm gonna cry at any moment scared.

I know we keep complaining about our education system every second day, but honestly what the fuck.

We were told all along tenth ke marks don't matter, and that 11th is not as important. And then they're using these marks to see if I get into a college or not. I am not complaning about the system of marking this year, as weird as that is. I am complaining about how fucking unfair college admissions are this year.

A prestigious college in Mumbai just released their cutoff and its frikking 99.17!

The problem is that my marks aren't even that bad. I got satisfactory enough marks, and I shouldn't be this worried about getting a college. This is not supposed to be as stressful as it is.

The one thing I grabbed from that video was that we would feel motivated when we'll put in some work or effort in anything and ackonwledge that we're putting in this much amount of work for something we want to do and have to.

Science also says that when we do something, giving our energy and mind to it, we get a reward of dopamine in the end. And who doesn't have want to get that reward.

So, from now, I've decided, that I'll do everything on my own, all the things I can do: I'll make my notes on my own, highlight my books, participate in tests( which actually helps you a lot) , make my coffee on my own( which I used to ask someone else to make usually), I'll wash my clothes on my own, do all the things I can do to make myself feel busy and working.

CHEMICAL REACTIONS AND EQUATIONS

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Music: this playlist yes, this is my personal spotify account:)

Starting a new chapter in chemistry todayy...