hard life

i dream of living within walking distance of a secondhand bookstore, a quiet café, and a river to sit at with my book and my coffee

i was going to learn 12 languages, read 250 books and learn 75 new skills this year what happened

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there’s something about living life deliberately…wearing clothes that you actually want to and that you feel reflect you and your style not just because you’ve had them for years and don’t know what else you would throw on….listening to songs and creating playlists that excite you and represent your actual mood not just listening to songs that you’ve had downloaded for years that don’t make you feel anything special anymore…it’s VERY easy to stay with what you’re comfortable and it might take a bit of experimenting before you find what feels like a deliberate choice that reflects more of YOU but it’s absolutely worth the leap of faith you may have to convince yourself to make in order to stop feeling like a passenger in your own life

love yourself despite it all. love yourself even when you said the wrong thing. when you messed up in class. when you got a grade you didn’t like. when you haven’t been outside in a week. accept yourself in spite of it all. accept yourself even if you didn’t get into the university you wanted. when you broke up with someone you thought you would stay with forever. when the guilt is eating you alive. when you feel like you can’t take it anymore. you are already whole, you are enough.

Tonight, let’s hold off the desire to stay online or binge-watching series or reading all night long. Indulge in your hobbies, but don’t let this turn into a habit of sleepless nights. Lost sleep can’t be recovered by over-sleeping the next night. This behavior is self-sabotage in the end. Ask yourself what are you avoiding by not going to bed? Or are you staying up so late because your day job is so demanding you only have time for your hobbies late at night? Do you have insomnia, do you need a doctor? Allow yourself to melt into your sheets earlier tonight. Your body and mind will thank you in the morning. And whatever it is that keeps you awake, try working on it. Rest is one of the things you can’t live without, no matter how much you delay it. Behaviors like this become habits that are hard to change and that will leave you ultimately burned out and sick. Go to bed earlier. Take that nap. Rest your shoulders and your back. Let your mind drift off somewhere it doesn’t have to constantly worry. Have a restful night of sleep. 🌿

HELL YEAH!!!!!!!!!

expressing love by giving them the bigger half. learning about a topic they’re interested in so they have someone to discuss it with. listening to their music and making them playlists to connect with them. remembering the little details they mention in conversations. little actions that show so much love.

Most important lesson I learned in the past year is, don’t let anyone turn you cruel. No matter how badly you wanna give the world a taste of its own bitter medicine. It’s never worth losing yourself over.

wild how like PCOS, endometriosis, vaginismus & hell, even frequent yeast infections are “mysterious” with no well known cause and little to no decent treatment, but we have tons of supposedly well researched body fat removal methods, about 20 different kinds of breast implants, laser hair removal, and 100 different dermatologist recommended anti aging creams. we sure had the money and brainpower to cure those “diseases”