#im human

I'm reading it now.

Here you go

"Look what you made them do." - again, what. Blaming viewers?

"the bloodiest, most shocking, and most cathartic addition to the show yet." - cathartic for who

"Entertainment Weekly talks to co-showrunners Eric Tuchman and Yahlin Chang about why it was time for Lawrence and Nick to die"

- so he's really dead

"Let's get into the big deaths right away, of Lawrence and Nick. From interviews Max Minghella has done, it seems like he was surprised and maybe a little sad with Nick's arc this season and his death. How long did you guys know this was where Lawrence and Nick would end their stories?

TUCHMAN: We knew pretty early on when we first started breaking the season, when the writer's room got together at the top of season 6, and we were talking about each character. And for me and Yahlin, it was really important that this season would be about testing and challenging these characters and having them reveal who they really are. What have they learned or not learned over the course of this series? And that made Nick and Lawrence, no exception. And for Nick, I'll just say we know it's a polarizing fate for him and that many of our fans are upset about it, but we understand that that comes from the love that they have for this character and the relationship he's had with June. And we love Nick for those reasons too. Max is an incredibly charismatic and compelling actor, and Nick has been June's savior and oasis for such a long time on the show. But we have to remember that she's not the only thing in his life, and that he's a commander in Gilead. And if there's one thing the series has shown is there's no such thing as a good commander. No matter how wonderful you may be to our main character, he has still been a willing full participant in Gilead."

-FUCK YOU

"YAHLIN CHANG: And I would just like to add, too, because I've seen comments about how could they turn him from such a wonderful guy into a villain, and I would say that he was never either of those things. I actually have a lot of sympathy for Nick. I mean, he was a guy who did wonderful things to save the woman that he loved. While at the same time he had this job as a commander in Gilead, and I don't see him as an evil villain. I think that he was under a lot of pressure. I have sympathy for him in that moment when Wharton, his father figure, came after him and said, "You'll end up on the wall. Your son will be left without a father." Nick made a split-second decision that was a mistake. He made a mistake. He didn't think it through. 

He did not know that all these women would get murdered as a result. He wasn't thinking. He was really stressed out. So in that split second, he made the wrong decision and a terrible mistake, but who doesn't make bad decisions and terrible mistakes under stress? But it had this huge consequence. But I think all of that just makes him really human. Like Max has said, he was not interested in a character who's heroic. He's interested in a character who is complex, because all human beings are complex. So the idea that he suddenly went from white to black or from hero to villain is just that we would be doing a disservice to our characters by painting them as just one thing or the other. They're all embodied in shades of gray because that's what humans are."

-Contradicts what they said above. So he "HAD TO DIE bc ALL COMMANDERS BAD" but ... also.. in the same breath... all humans are complex shades of grey. YOU CANT HAVE BOTH YOU FUCKING MORONS.

"CHANG: Well, I think what was so brave about Bruce's storytelling in episode 10 is that he really didn't want it to suffer from series finale-itis. So there is for sure a temptation, and I myself would totally give into that temptation. I have a real kind of pander-y, feel-good vibe, and Bruce can hold that at bay, but he didn't want to tie up every single thing in a bow. And I think the power of the show is that it doesn't feel like a TV show, but it feels like real life. So the kind of rhythm and the structure of this season was that [episode] 8, and then twice as much [episode] 9, were sort of these big, epic, kind of little mini films with huge climactic explosions. And then 10 has the feeling of denouement — the fun of it is what happens the next day? So you really can't beat [episode] 9 for an execution and the plane exploding. There's just huge, huge moves, and then 10 returns to a sense of that quiet realism of like, well, what happens the next day, and that feeling that we're just dropping in on this moment."

OH GEE WOW BIG EXPLOSIONS! WOOOOOWWWWWW. Fuck you forever.

or do you just not like him now because of whatever the hell mclaren is doing with lando but oscar is still winning :(

(im just sad seeing sm ln4 fans with anti oscar posts, like i cant find any non anti oscar ln4 blogs to follow istg)

i have mixed feelings about him. i don't hate him. but i also don't have it in me to properly love him either. my first and foremost driver is and will always be lando. i've been trying to keep my feelings about mclaren fucking up shit with lando and oscar as a driver separate. its hard, but i really am trying.

i won't necessarily say anti oscar things on here, because i know i might regret them in the future. but i also can't support someone if i'm not supporting them 100%.