#illustrari

So, I've been good to myself yesterday. I cleaned my room down to the tiniest dirt, fold my clothes then cook for mom and dad.

And so I thought, I need to go out. Well actually, the reason why I want to go out was to check some bags for our exchange gift on our Christmas party. Unfortunately the budget for the exchange gift is way cheaper than the actual prices of the bag so I had a hard time looking then decided to just eat and call it a day.. haha..

So, I just dated my self instead.

It's fun, in a way because you don't have to ask anyone;

"where do you wanna eat? "

"what do you want to eat? "

It's all you, there's only yourself who will make the decision.

It's fun to treat yourself once in a while. Go out, try something new, taste something different and find happiness from the things you can do by yourself.

Intertwined between your wants and needs 

Lingering on simple things and some romantic deeds 

Overly caring and appreciative 

Very hard to find no matter how far you dig 

Everything seems so fast since I met you 

Years seems like months then months became days during all those times I spent with you 

Our time is limited and we both know it's true 

Until the day you tell me to stop, I might still be here for you 

Every time you'll read this I hope you would see it 

Lost in thoughts maybe because some things won't fit 

Listen to every words because I really mean it 

It might just be from afar and virtual but mine had a beat 

So much for the inevitable And for everything that is possible I now feel the part that anytime I can be disposable

I tried to look back and hoping to see the same person But to my surprise things has been different maybe because we've learned a lesson

I miss you, yes I miss the late night talks, yes I miss that part where you and I let each other know everything to the point where sleeping seems like the only thing that will come in between

To my thoughts which lingers on what has been I still keep on smiling while I’m remembering and thinking about your thing

Maybe this is something that you shouldn't be reading Or maybe this is something that I shouldn't even be writing But this is one of the ways I know how to thank you and let you know that knowing you, I've had one of the best feelings

You're pretty much covered up inside 

But somehow you seemed naked outside 

You tend to be clouded with all these confusions 

That in time builds up your frustrations 

While you're searching for something bright 

You always tend to look left and right 

Your sagacious nature begins to crumble 

And with impulsive decisions you sometimes stumble 

Get up twice if you think standing once will not suffice 

Face your abdication then move on with a cinematic faction 

Never always hang too tight and don't be too careful 

But keep in mind not to hang loose and careless because it'll make you look like a fool 

If you feel alone because nobody's there beside you 

Try looking behind you maybe there's someone who's ready to catch you 

Don't be so silent and speak more often 

Because that person behind you might always be ready to listen 

A personage who sees your wholeness when you're broken 

Know your innocence when you're lawless and blameworthy 

Will somehow keep you sane in times of confusions 

“ A tool of thief, toy of queen. Always used to be unseen. Sign of joy, sign of sorrow. Giving all likeness borrowed... “ - Enigma

Trying to pretend to be the Riddler but can't put his own puzzle pieces together.. maybe this calls for a cold beer in a high place.. together with a pen and paper..