#ileftbecause

I left Christianity because the bible said that the gospel would have to spread across the world and everyone would have to have the chance to hear it before God would return and save the world. 

With the rate of people getting pregnant, and equally people laying in their graves that maybe have never heard the gospel, there is no chance that every one will hear about the gospel because the cycle keeps going and going and going.  People are born into this world incessantly.  So if we keep going at this rate, God is never coming back because people continue to be born and die and he still has not yet returned.  

2020 brought me into age 40.  

2020 allowed me to escape my toxic environment and start a new life hundreds of miles from home.  I fucking did it! I fucking did it!

2020 took me into my sexual healing.  Healing from suppression brought on by religion.  Now, I rejoice in my sexual desires.  I burn the abusive mentality that my sexuality as a woman is shameful or wrong.  I burn the holy book that created all of these stupid disgusting abusive outlooks on my gender.  I burned it all down and recovered myself.  I learned that what I am doing to heal myself, has healed others.  I am encouraged to continue to share my story, my lust, my natural desires to remind the world that we are all okay...well, some of us anyway.  Sex is not something that should be shamed under the false and imaginary fear tactic of God and the holy bible.  That is religious trauma and I continue to heal from it and denounce all the mental slavery it put me under.  I am human.  Just like everyone else.  I enjoy touching and exploring my body and learning, establishing and reinforcing my boundaries based on what I like.  I am learning what callers and customers to decline as soon as my red flag goes up. Some things I wish I didn’t know but had to come across to learn what makes me tick and to stand by that at all times.  

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Readers of religious conservative literature will know that the ongoing mass defections from Christianity are routinely attributed to factors outside of the faith itself - “brainwashing” in college, internet porn, the enticements of consumer culture, the media, etc.  

Physical, sexual and emotional abuse in churches?  General ignorance and scientific illiteracy that’s not even noticed as a problem?  Hypocrisy and unethical behavior?  Biblical hate speech and mindless sectarianism?  Sexism?  Ostracism and hatred directed against LGBT people?  Support for the rapist/con-artist/failed businessman/mafia-tied/narcissist cretin Trump?

For the full scope of these problems to be admitted would seemingly require the abandonment of much of what makes conservative Christianity possible at all.  It would require a commitment to evidence and not wishful thinking or magical thinking.  It would require loosening much of Christianity’s toxic superiority self-image.  It would mean having the psychological maturity and intellectual honesty to admit how shot-through with racism so much of white evangelical Christianity is.   Etc.