#ifinallysaidit

And I want to respond with the truth about how I really am. What im really feeling. I want to tell you how shitty I feel. I want to tell you that im tired of everything and that I dont want to be here anymore. I dont want to feel like a slave. I dont want to look at myself and not feel comfortable with what I see. I dont want to see everyone around me doing something with their lives and me feeling like im in quicksand not being able to do shit. Im stuck and I dont like it. I dont like who I am becoming. I dont like how I feel. I dont like that im alive. But no , if you asked me “how are you?” I’ll respond with “I’m fine” because that’s just how I am. Im not fine though, I feel trapped within myself and im tired.

Ok, now that I have a tumblr, I can say this loud and clear: I DON'T KNOW WHY PEOPLE FUSS ABOUT JAMES AND LILY. I have nothing against the people who likes them, but it is my personal opinion. But seriously? Ok, they are Harry's parents and all. Let me analyze them as two people and not Harry's parents. Lily was a saint. I didn't like her at all. I don't like people that did not do stuff, that have no defects, that is just there, like a Virgin Holy Mary. And James. OMG JAMES. He was just an arrogant kid, that bullied people for no reason. Ok, a loyal friend, if you see what he did for Lupin. But it is like, I expected that. The rest, just an arrogant kid. The books/movies did not pass me more than that. And I don't feel guilty anymore for not being interested in the Marauder's Era.