i was gonna apologize in advance but #myblog #myrules so anyways its crazy how fucked up neglect will make you. like truthfully my entire brain did not develop in so many categories and i really do wonder what life wouldve been like had i had literally anyone in my life at all. its not possible to change the past, and what i need is just more information and instruction on and about our accepted reality, but its crazy how hard neglect will stagnate your mind.

I've gotten to the point where i'm thinking "i wanna kill myself' again../neg

meanwhile my throat hurts rly bad but I am being SO brave about it

I never thought that just filing my taxes for a seasonal fucking job would possibly put my second stimulus check in limbo. It may be weeks or months before I get anything..if I get it at all. I'm just..I can't deal with this shit right now.. Way to go IRS. You've pretty much doomed me and millions of others to destitution..

I feel so bad.. I don't even know what to say.. it scares me and also reassures me that they decided not to push it but.. I just want them to be good and happy and healthy.. please day6 take care of yourself. Mydays will wait for you, no matter how long you need..