#htsb

I have so many things I want to say right now, but let's start with the most obvious: I am so fucking cooked, chat.

Exactly a month ago, I watched what was supposed to be an inconsequential video on YouTube analyzing Mystreet/Minecraft Diaries. And even though it has been years since I watched either series-- much less even thought about either one-- my brain went, "Hm, yes! Hyperfixation time!" Specifically for Zane, if you couldn't tell.

And, sure, there's nothing inherently wrong with that! But the amount of time I spend thinking about this emo white boy (much less drawing him) is frankly concerning.

To make matters worse, Zane wasn't even my favorite character back in the day. But for some reason, I saw him this time around and my brain literally went:

Again, there's so much I want to say, but I'll save the rest of my unhinged rambling for another day.

IMAGE DESCRIPTIONS / CONTEXT

Image 1: This is just a line-up of some of my MS/MCD Zane designs! The leftmost drawing is early MS Zane (Season 1 -> Emerald Secret), the middle one is later MS Zane (Aphmau's Year -> When Angels Fall), and the rightmost drawing is of MCD Zane. I don't really have a design for MCD Zane just yet, so he def looks a bit lackluster compared to the other two.

Image 2: You cannot convince me that this isn't the exact kind of conversation Zane and Garroth would have in canon. And I know most people don't like himbo Garroth, but I would literally die for this version of him. His dynamic with Zane in the later seasons of MS is just so adorable to me.

Image 3: This is a reference to another Tumblr post (https://www.tumblr.com/ungurth/797062177010941952/day-10-crossover?source=share) I honestly would kill to see an interaction between MS and MCD Zane. Like, MS Zane literally goes around calling himself evil when his worst crimes are breaking & entering, minor vandalism, and being a bully/jerk to people. Meanwhile, MCD Zane is canonically a psychotic mass murderer who enjoys torturing people for fun. They are NOT on the same level whatsoever lmao

The Cure:

Everybody's Fool (to be fair this one is more like an animation):

Bernadette:

Twin Size Mattress:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r_QEixr6-xs

I feel like I'm going through this all again. When Dan ended his run on How to Succeed, I sobbed. I remember watching his final speech and literally sobbing my eyes out. This show is incredible and I wish I could of seen it more then I did. I was lucky to see it 4 times. 3 times with the hyper active and incredible DanRad who surprised me each and every time. Getting to see it with him was the best experience, and I was even luckier to win tickets to see it with Nick once back in March and was planning on going again end of June for a last time but sadly, fans were more interested in meeting Nick, then seeing the show and it ended tonight. This show gave me a love for musicals and theater again. I know I will see it for sure if it ever comes back to broadway cause it really is a terrific show. 

Now I find myself, 5 months later, once again sobbing my eyes out. I wish I could of seen it 100 times cause every time I laughed, I cried, I had fun with every member of its cast, with every performance, it got better. If I had a job, I would of gone a few more times and even for Darren Criss. This show is so much fun. 

Whether I was last row, center, 3rd row or front row, I enjoyed every minute of it. From the beginning music to the final bow. I will cherish these memories for a life time.