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13 - Any Introjects that dislike their source? Why?

I am 1 of if not the only fictive here who wld prob say I dnt like my source, 2nd place cld b Sal 👀 I Cannot Look @ the thought of playin my game again- b I’m ngl, I hnstly dnt kno if it’s bc of Bad Memories or if I dnt like it 4 real- bc I mean,,, game wise it’s cool I G- I ITS- U KNO- b it makes me a lil upset inside,,,, the Fear of Deltarune being finished is Rlly Real- the emotionl flashbacks of not being in control freak me out Akjssj idk, I dnt like it bc of Trauma rsns i g lol, it’s small b that’s Rlly it- otherwise, I love googling it sometimes KAJSJS bc the fandoms headcanons r rlly Mood n I love fanart n seeing mini one shot fanfics on tumblr

Quick insert, but I’d say I’m one of those too. I don’t absolutely hate my source because my friends came from there; It was my home somehow. At the same time, I’m upset because it contains- you know, Trauma, death, sui//, s/h, me and my friends went through a Lot and until now, it still shakes me. The difference between me and Kris is that while I can get uncomfortable looking at my source, I can watch it and listen to it for the most part. Kris absolutely backpedals- and you know, I just let him be upset about it. Lack of control is pretty triggering for him- hence why he just really doesn’t like Bandersnatch - Sal

17 - Do ur introjects sources influence their fashion taste?

Hnstly I’d say yes 4 all of us 2 som big degree unless ur source is vague 2 where our brain just bridgd the gaps

[TL;DR - This is a Big Yes n No, bc most of us r from games where we wear only 1 outfit KSJKS so u can imagine that beside sour “static outfit” our prsnl taste is well based on ourselves- n whether or not our taste is based on source is wild 2 answ bc we r like- “But I am Me n that is my taste” KAJSKS this is such a wack qstion 2 answ w Confdnce]

Like 4 me (Kris), I will Die 2 get my sweatr back- it’s a BIG comfort vibe- I love anyth comfy n soft- I love longsleeves n I jst Love Snug Stuff- b @ the same time I impulsively wnna wear neon shirts n stuff Kajssj I’m a sweatr kid, when I’m frntng I’d rlly prfr wearing long sleeves n pants 👀 I actlly own a pair of sequins sneakrs??? Like it’s black velvet n sequins that shine orange n blue?? It’s old b I started owning it n it still rocks KSJSJ

Chara is also a sweatr kid, b since their canon source is vague idk how 2 answ it rite KSJSJ they always uslly wear their green sweatr as a default b likes 2 devi8, just enjoys dressing like booknerd or a usual teen, h8s not wearing long sleeves when going out in publc- n unfrntly 1 of the rsns y besides comfy n safe, is source rsns, or I g bc Source is vague, then canon rsns- will wear boots or sneakers— their color scheme is uslly earth tones- n try like adding yellow if it fits their theme 4 the day- they own yellow sneakers outspace!!!! O n they own a number of boots KSKSK. Also will wear n prefers 2 wear green esp if they’re upset (outspace)

Tbh I can’t explain Sal’s style much othr than either default, emo, butch lesbian- I kno it’s a stereotype b he loves plaid n jst lookin prtty KSJSJ he says trans rights, so he actlly has his whole outfit outspace, he wore it 2 Halloween once!! Othr than that he can wear anyth— him along w Chara has 1 of the best fashion senss here I think- n Sal is the 1 here who Will wear a skirt if he’s in the mood— n 1 time he did when we went 2 school n every1 calld him cute, it was a good day KSJSJS I drew that outfit 1nce,,, he’ll also tie our hair somtimes n wear black nail polish? In the game he only wears 1 Outfit b besides that he dresses like a lot of headcanons out ther. Also he feels Wildly uncomfy in no longsleeves along w chara. O n he also prefers leaving the house w a face mask on- he’s rlly self conscious abt his face even when fronting, he can handle showing our right eye b he wld rather cover everyth if possible- TLDR: Im not sure b his fashion sense is rlly cool- wants 2 look confusing in terms of gendr n he passes (inspace) as confusion n I think that’s beautiful

Peter LAYRS, N IDK Y,,,, like, Peter u [now] live in a TRPCL COUNTRY,,, stop putting longsleeves under ur sweatr, I kno it looks good on u b y r u picking the Thick ones we have AksjskKKSKS,,,,,,, otherwise he’s Also a sweatr kid n also wld prefer longsleeves if possible? B he’s alright w no longsleeves. ANYWY the answ 4 him is yes bc he owns a Spider-Man hoodie (FFH colors), a stark industries shirt, like 3 Ironman shirts n an avengers shirt lnsajkdbkdbj he RLLY wants science shirts so we’re trying 2 get him som- anyth 4 the baby. He also prefers converse n is just ur usual hs teen geek

Crowley: if it’s blck then he’ll wear it Kasnsnsn- yea he wears shades like he does in source, n walls arnd trying 2 b close 2 his source cube as pssble bc he’s jst like that- it’s rlly wild tho bc everytime (they’re rare b they hppn) he frnts ppl always complimnts his fashion choices ?? JSJSJ

I’ve found my groove.

Our headspace is so interesting to me. We finally have drawn up what we can remember of our innerworld and its just so cool. When we first discovered systemhood our innerspace was a severely dirty and beat up bus. Months later and its grown over and gaining more nature and things within the space. Its so interesting how the innerspace changes as you accept parts of your system. Some days in deep denial i still can see that dirty ass bus. But on good days its a green lush overgrown bus thats just PRETTY yk

what am i looking for? what is it that my body feels it is lacking? i sometimes feel the void when i haven't been creative in awhile or when i have unfinished projects staring me down from corners of the room. i feel it when my ego is begging for recognition, i think. when i feel ugly, invisible, boring, empty, i search in all corners for that slight elation i get from others simply seeing me. i want to be seen and i am not.

i think i just want someone to see my projects and think i am so talented. this is hard to admit, but the ego is embarrassing and needs to be bled in order to heal. i have been trying to find any way to bridge that gap to others, to be seen and heard, whether it be through writing or creating or expressing. my ego is hurting and i feel it like a concave in my chest.

I remember last year’s holiday season and the year before; as much as they were full of warmth and love, they were still some of my most melancholy moments. Embarking on the ups and downs of life, I remember needing someone to talk to other than family and friends, so I did, and it was tremendously helpful. This year I decided to write a little piece for those of us not having the brightest…

I feel even lonelier when I’m sick. It’s a sensation like drowning in something thick; it feels like being suspended in a vat of honey. So much weight all over my body. So much painful jealousy and sadness. A close friend had recently asked me why we don’t really talk anymore. I told her that a mix of my physical and mental health keeps me chained to my house even though it is a place I hate being. Nowhere really feels all too safe, but outside feels worse than inside.