Ok so I have to get this off my chest RIGHT NOW or I will explode

So here come the Steven(s) - this is not DID or anything, this is just the personalities Steven fakes in different situations, and his body and outfit reflect it.

Human Steven - nobody likes this one. He is small and weak and has weird colors. He never shows this form after The Accident. Because he's running on gem time, and gems don't sleep or eat, the second he enters this form the 5 years of sleep dept hit him like a truck to the point he might just faint. Extremely weak due to exhaustion.

Pink Diamond! - This is the one Yellow and Blue adore! Natural born entertainer, able to put a smile to every Gem. SHe can sing, she can dance, she can even blow balloons out of her his fingertips! You can hear his teeth grinding into dust as his lips pull tight over them.

Pink Diamond. - White made this one. This is what a diamond should be. There are cracks under his skin, his voice is a whisper on the wind and an earthquake in one. He will do what has to be done, even if he averts his gaze.

I rly like the last one quz of the whole wilted rose thing and he has a place in the story but idk maybe he's too emo

His showman persona is what he acts like on homeworld, when he leaves he has a more tame outfit and he acts rather calm - but it's A LIE he's always 5 seconds away from a mental breakdown.

I have a scene for Wilted I might even draw it. Even two. There's a reason Steven covers his eyes.

Happy New Year! Please don't ask me how long it took me to draw this, thank you.

This year I'm trying to get more comfortable with colouring so I hope you like this! I like the idea that Spamton has a very 'polite' business laugh that he spent a lot of time practising because his real laugh is.....terrible AHAH. Real will make a baby cry and make a mirror crack terrible witch cackle kind of laugh. What a lad.

Silly bonus under the cut!

Ghost: JOHNNY!?!?

Gaz: WHAT THE FUCK?? Suds, what happened??!?

Soap: I... don't know?

Gaz, as he frantically starts dressing the wound: What do you fucking mean you don't know!?

Soap: I think I got stabbed. But he was hot so I wasn't paying attention

Ghost: WHAT!?

Soap: *passes out from bloodloss*

The fact Shen Jiu The Person™, living breathing and being is nowhere in the canon. We know of a Shen Jiu in the novel and all the character information is gleaned off anecdotes, author's notes and second hand reports, reactions of others to him and their perception of him.

We got what Shen Yuan's thoughts are on him (The scummiest villain to scum), we got Airplane's scraped backstory for him (erased and forgotten), we got reactions from other peak lords to the before and after in SQQ's behaviour and their limited interactions. We even get Luo Binghe's gratefulness for the 180 personality shift. That's all in reaction to ripples to Shen Yuan's presence and is again filtered through his biases.

The closest we could get to a real portrayal of Shen Jiu would have been from Yue Qingyuan but that man would not speak of what SQQ would not bring up himself. And it will still just be a portrait, very much flawed and altered.

He is the one character we will never truly meet.

All of those are outside of Shen Jiu. We never actually see him, only glimpses of him through others.

There's no Shen Jiu in the canon. He doesn't just show up in the novels, not even for a scene. (Even og Bing-ge does what the hell). Point being, Shen Jiu was whatever people saw him as and as what changed, even us readers.

But here's the kicker

We ourselves participate in building him anew from love and that makes me so feral

We as a fandom decided to make him whole, beyond the canon, because we saw those crumbs and said, no, he's more than that, he's a person, he deserves a voice that's his own and we will write to give him it and we will make him whole rather than the sum of others' perception of him.

"Izu, get off my desk."