#hawkin

bone imagery in a historical/museum context in this moodboard!

from Chapter 13, "The Joining of the Signs"

-- Chapter 7: The Book of Gramarye

Hawkin being the tool by which Merriman is able to extract knowledge for Will breaks my heart. It's a fundamental change to the relationship between a child and his adoptive parent, to have his life be the bond for retrieving an object, even an important object. And as both son and subject of Merriman, extracted from an explicitly feudal era for this purpose, there is no real option for Hawkin to say “No, I will not give over my life to you in this way.” Of course Hawkin is shaken and shattered, even though he doesn't die. How could Hawkin not come to the conclusion that the Light cares nothing for him? It doesn't. Merriman as a person does. But in his capacity as the oldest of the Light's avatars, he cares about the Light's goals more.

Mesmerized

Chapter 4

Word count:4043

Eddie pov

I haven't been able to get Dani out of my head. I know I always had one night stands but she was different.I was mesmerized by her beauty, her voice and her eyes and she reminded me of someone but couldn't remember who.

There was something about her that drove me crazy.

I don't know what drug she gave me or what kind of witchcraft shit she did on me but I think I was in love. Maybe I'm being over dramatic but shit I never believed in love at first sight but I think I do now .

Fuck !! Maybe I'm being a little too crazy or like Gareth tells me the pussy was too good that made me goo goo for her .

But whatever it was I couldn't stop thinking about her .

Her smile.

Her eyes.

Her lips .

Her red hair .

Her hands.

Her legs.

She was like a drug to me, a drug I had once and now I had to have every time. If not I would go crazy. I need her. I had to have her again but I had to wait till I got out of school .

Jesus Christ Eddie get a grip of yourself she is just a girl a one night stand it didn't mean anything but somehow it did it shouldn't .

Maybe it was the fact that she spent the night with me or that we cuddled afterwards .

Whatever it was, she put a spell on me .

Getting ready for school still sucks in high school. What a dumbass I was. this year was my year I was graduating the year ,I was a senior year for the third time.Shit happen the first year of 12th grade with my dad that didn't end up good .I needed to get out to graduate I couldn't stand seeing Higgins face longer and I knew this year was it for me I had a feeling .

My main focus was to graduate and attend every class in time because I want to get out of this shit hole and go on a Road trip this summer if I graduate .

I'm crossing my fingers .

Then with all my thinking Dani came to my head ,the girl had me mesmerized shit that girl has me on knees and I just met her .

What if I invite Dani to my road-trip ?

Nah ,maybe I should wait.I just met her and I might scare her with something like that .

Yup I just wait for that .

When I arrive at school I park at my usual place as I did the years before .

I put the van in park and headed inside the cafeteria and sat with the hellfire club.

"Hey Eddie !!" A cheerful dustin greets me

"Hey Henderson."

I sat at the head of the table and got my cellphone out. I wanted to text Dani but I felt like it was too early.Maybe she was probably still sleeping .

From the corner of my eye I see as Gareth leans in close to me .

"Have you seen the new history teacher ?" He ask

"What about the history teacher ?" I ask, staring at Dani's texts and smiling like an idiot.

I should have asked for a picture to put on her contact.I think to myself ignoring whatever Gareth is saying about the new history teacher .

"She is fucking hot and young ." Gareth says

As I was ignoring Gareth he notices and he decides to stop trying to have a conversation with me and goes and talks to Dustin and the other guys about the history teacher .

Suddenly Dustin and Gareth start having a stupid argument about Dustin's sister.I didn't even know he had a sister .I find out new things about my friends all the time .

I don't know how they went from a history teacher to Dustin's sister .

I just ignore them and stare at my screen waiting for a text from Dani.

But I go inpatient and  open Dani's texts  and I start typing, Ok ima send her a text .

I told myself .

E:"Goodmorning sweetheart."

I press send and waited for her to reply

💬.....

D:"Good Morning handsome ."

Ok she is awake or maybe I woke her up .

E:"How's your morning so far?"

I felt like a teenage boy I had a big smile on my face I probably look like a fucking idiot smiling at my phone .

D:"Well today is my first day at the job,how's yours?"

Good thing I didn't wake her up. I wonder where she works ?

E:"Shitty but now is better that you answer ."

What the fuck did I just send "better now that you answer." What the fuck was wrong with me ?

Suddenly the bell Rang meaning I had to get my ass up from The Chair and head to class. I hadn't realized that everyone had left already and left me all alone .

I was too into my conversation with Dani that I didn't even notice them leaving .

I get my schedule out of my pocket and check what I have first period and guess what I have. yes "History ." I guess I'll see what all the fuss is about the new teacher. I'll be the judge .

I walk towards my first class looking

At my phone waiting for Dani to reply .

No new message ,should I send her a msg?

Yes I will .

Why was I so desperate ?I'm telling you this girl did something to me .

I know myself and I would never ever in a million years message a girl back.I will always wait for her to message me and if they didn't I would totally forget about them and move on to the next one .

E:"Can't wait to see you later ."

I press send and waited for her to reply

The tardy bell rang and I realized I wasn't even close to my first period so I ran so

I wouldn't be late to class .

I got there just in time.I burst the door open accidentally and everyone turned to look at me .As always the class was full and I was the last to come in .

Typically Eddie Munson Entrance .

I turned to look at the teacher but she had her back to everyone writing something on the board.

"Sorry ma'am ." I said heading to the seat at the very back never like sitting in the front .

I stared at the teacher. She looked really familiar. I didn't pay too much attention. Maybe it was just my imagination. I got my phone out and msg Dani again.

E:"Talk to you later, just got to class."

💬......

D:"Ok."

She reply back fast

"Holy shit!!" I heard someone say and to my surprise the one that said that was the history teacher .

And you won't guess who my Hot History teacher was ...

"Danielle." I said loudly, making everyone turn to look at me then at Dani .

Yes you heard that right it was Dani I fucked my History teacher !!!

Jesus fucking Christ !!!

You got to be fucking kidding her first day at the job was as a History Teacher in my fucking school.And she is my fucking teacher never in a million years would I have thought to have sex with one of my teachers .

Well I never had a hot teacher before .

Poor Dani looked shocked, she was just standing there looking at me with wide eyes.I wanted to talk to her to make sure everything was good and to tell her I wasn't going to say anything to anyone. I know that's what she would be worried about being that she was my teacher and we had sex .

Shit..

Could this day get any weirder...

Everyone in the class turns to look at Dani .

I didn't know what to do or how to act right now .

I don't know if the universe hates me because when I find a girl like Dani she turns out to be my fucking teacher .

My fucking history teacher!!!

I decided to text her but she didn't want to talk to me she even told me to forget about ever meeting  her ,how the fuck do I do that ?

If all I did since I met her Saturday was think about her and how she made me feel .

Fuck I didn't want to loose her not like this I needed to talk to her .

I sent her a msg saying that if she didn't want to talk to me then I'll get detention with her so I could talk.

I thought of something to do and I came to terms that I actually had no idea what I was going to do .

Dani was walking around the class checking on everyone I couldn't take my sight of her she was so fucking beautiful.

She then sat back at her desk .

Then I got an idea 💡 I got up from my desk and walk over to her desk stop and look at her then I  got on top of her desk and started a speech about myself and shit .

I looked down at her and she looked like wanted to laugh but was holding back .

Then I got down and started walking around class saying my stupid speech .

I don't know how I was able to talk if I was nervous as Fuck I continued with my speech.

Making Jason mad in the process I hated that guy so much .

Then i passed by Chrissy

"Good-morning sweetheart ." I tell her making her blush

I always had a crush on Chrissy but she was with Jason so I lost hope about her even looking at me .

Finally Dani calls me over to her desk and tells me I have detention for a week .

Great, just what I wanted .

My plan worked .

But now I have detention for a whole week .

I went back to my seat and waited for class to be over .

The bell finally rang and I got out of class as fast as I could and headed to my next class .

I couldn't concentrate on the rest of my classes. I was just thinking of her. I couldn't get her out of my head. I wanted to msg her but I controlled my urge until finally lunch time came and I headed to her class for lunch Detention.

I walked in her class and there she was sitting down typing something into her laptop .

I go and sit in the desk that's right in front of her desk and smile at her.

All I could think about when I saw her was that night I couldn't get her out of my head .

The way her body felt against mine her lips on mine Damn I was getting hard just thinking of her what the fuck was wrong with me ?

She is my teacher and I just pop a damn boner in school.Its was embarrassing acting like a horny teenager.

Maybe she is right and we should stop whatever this is. I wouldn't want her to get in trouble because of me .

But something about hiding made it even more interesting and hot but at the same thing dangerous and really really risky.

I kept my sight on her but she completely ignores me and continues doing  whatever she is doing on her laptop

I look at the board and see her name written in her pretty handwriting, nothing compared to my chicken scratch.

"Miss.Henderson."

Henderson, that's when it hit me. Is she related to Dustin?is she the big sister he is always talking about ? I had to ask her ..

"Henderson?By any chance are you related .."I get interrupted by Henderson,wheeler and Byers walking in the classroom asking Dani for $10

The three of them look at me in confusion.

"Eddie ,what are you doing here ?" Dustin ask

"I could ask the same thing Henderson." I tell him

"Dani is my older sister ." He says happily

"Oh is that so ,."I guess i had sex with Henderson's sisters fuck my life now Henderson was probably gonna hate me for eternity,well if he ever finds out.

"Why are you here ?" Mike ask me

"Miss.Henderson gave me lunch detention for a week so I'll be having lunch with her ." I tell him  with a big smile on my face happy as Fuck that I'll have a week to talk to Dani at least during lunch .

"Mr.munson it's detention not a party so I would appreciate it if you ate your lunch in silence ."Dani suddenly tells me interrupting the kids and my conversation.

She was so adorable when she was mad .

Especially the way she raises her brow.

Who would have thought that I Eddie Munson would be in Detention just to talk to a girl who was my teacher .

And especially a girl because to me all girls were just a one night stand thing but Dani she makes everything better .

Maybe i'm in love ,nah that's not possible I don't fall in love .

I mean I like her. I barely met her a few days ago ,you can't possibly fall in love in a matter of days ?

"What did he do to make you mad ?" I heard Byers ask Dani. She doesn't reply anything back but hugs buyers. I didn't even know she had a good relationship with the kids ..

"Can we stay here with you ?" Dustin suddenly ask

Yeah I didn't think that those shrimps needed me during lunch but I had to be selfish and tried to talk to Dani.

Now I'm stuck here for a week .

Maybe she gave me detention on purpose so she could have me close by ?

"What's wrong buddy ?"dani look concern if she only knew how her brother got bully by the basketball players ,is a good thing I met them during summer Henderson and his friends came to take summer classes to advance in the year and that's when I met them ,don't ask me what i was doing in school in the summer I was actually force to volunteer to show the freshman around for extra credit .

Sucks to be me ..

But hey it helped .

Dani continue talking to

The kids and they eventually told her how they met me .They started talking about D&D and telling Dani to join Hellfire.

"Should join what ?"I ask, putting a pretzel in my mouth. Dustin ,Will and Mike rush over to me and start telling me how good she is at D&D and that she taught them how to play .

I was amazed she couldn't be more perfect .

Will is too excited and starts saying that she will be the perfect coach and she could take us to competíons and blah blah blah,and to be honest I've never heard of another D&D club in another school but to have to spend time with Dani then let her be our coach or whatever the fuck they wanted her to be .Thats was great and I have never love the fresh men more than I do today.

"I don't know what Miss.Henderson thinks ."

I grinned looking at her .Fuck I hope

She said yes.

"Guys look I'll think about it ok ." She tells them,fuck Dani say yes please .

The three of them all cheered and went to hug Dani tightly.

"Ok guys go get some lunch ." Dani tells them.

I mean they could sit with Gareth and Jeff while I'm gone. I know they will take care of them while I'm here .

"My sheeps sit with Gareth and Jeff at the hellfire table ."I tell them and they all get really excited .

Dani watches them leave then goes back to her desk. I watch her prepare her salad. I'm fighting the urge to not bend her down on her  desk and make her mine again but I shake those thoughts out of my head .

Maybe I won't, maybe I'll save them for tonight while I'm all alone in my room .

Jesus Christ I'm getting hard again I need to calm down and think about something else but just staring at her the way she eats her salad .

I've never thought I'll be jealous of a fork and a piece of fucking lettuce .

Ok I should talk to her. That's why I wanted detention. But here I am daydreaming of what I should do to her and wasting precious time . Now I was alone with her and I wasn't even talking. I was just gawking at her, probably drooling and hard.

So I decided to go for it. But first I had to fix myself. I couldn't. Embarrassing myself right now .At first I opened my mouth but nothing came out .Ok I have to think of what to say and not sound stupid or desperate .

Ok, think Eddie, what do you want to tell her ?

I open my mouth and I talk so fucking fast I don't even know if she understood what I said .

"Dani, can we please talk,I-I can't just pretend it never happened cause it did ." I get up from my desk and walk towards her standing right next to her looking down at her.

She ignores me and continues eating her salad .

"Dani, please look at me ." I placed my hand on her shoulder and I could see how I made her feel. I don't know why she was holding back well I did ,but what happened at the hideout she didn't know I was her student and I didn't even know she was my teacher.

I mean is not fair ,why did the universe had to do this, I finally meet a nice girl and she is my fucking history teacher who is hot as hell and is not afraid of me or thinks I'm a freak .

"Edward, please don't make this harder than it is ." She says softly with her eyes close

I keep looking down at her ,her eyes are still closed until she finally opens them and looks up to me .

I kneel down next to her and spun her chair so she could be facing me .

"Dani, I never had a connection like this with anyone ."

She doesn't say anything but stares at the classroom door .

"Edward."She finally says

"Eddie."I corrected her. I'm not gonna lie. I love how Edward sounds when she says it .But I only like it coming from her mouth .

"Whatever Munson,I really do like you ,I had so much fun with you that night. Actually that night was amazing and I haven't been able to get it out of my head ."

She hasn't stopped thinking about me?That's good because I haven't stopped thinking about her ..

"Really and what do you think of ?" I ask her, raising a brow and winking at her.

She doesn't say anything and just stands up and walks towards the door and closes the blind then walks back to me.

I'm confused as fuck to what she is doing ?

"What are you doing?" I ask confused ,standing up.

She suddenly kissed my lips and I kissed her back like there was no tomorrow. I wanted to remember her lips. I smiled in the kiss because I couldn't believe this was actually happening.

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The rest of my classes went by super fast for the reason that I couldn't stop thinking of Dani. We didn't even have a chance to talk about what was going to happen between us .

Because instead of talking we where making out all over her classroom we didn't even eat lunch and now I was hungry as fuck .

Just thinking of her made me hard and I couldn't stop thinking of the way we kissed in her damn classroom The adrenaline that was in my veins at the moment the risk of someone catching us fuck everything was so messed up, the way she kisses me the way her hands play with my hair when she is kissing me her little moans she makes .

Fuck!!I decided to text her .

E:"Sweetheart are we still on for that date ?"

💬......

Yes she is typing now I'm scared of what she is going to answer, what if she tells me no or what if she says yes .

D:I really want to but I don't know 😒

So she does want to go with me on a date but she is scared that if I tell her instead of going to the movies I'll invite her somewhere more private or maybe Eddie you shouldn't get involved with your teacher a part of me told me but I wasn't going to listen to that part .

D:I thought you were amazing Eddie when I first met you. I was mesmerized by the way you play your guitar ,by your voice but mostly your eyes drove me crazy. Those brown eyes ,damn those brown eyes , you're an amazing boy .

E:I'm still That boy Dani there's nothing different about me nothing has changed

💬......

D:Eddie, I'm your teacher, that's what changed ..

E:Dani I know is  just not me ,I know you feel this is right for us too .

💬......

D:I'm sorry Eddie we just can't .

E:"Why?!? Dani please don't do these to me "

She didn't respond back ,the bell rang signaling the class was over. I got my binder and stormed off the class towards my van .

I turned on the engine and turned on the radio at full blast. I didn't care I was on school grounds, I just hated the way I was feeling I wanted to be with Dani and I know trust me I understand the reason she doesn't want to be with me.

But I was selfish and I wanted to be with her. I never felt like this for anyone .

Shit now im fucking crying like a fucking pussy .

I started hitting the steering wheel until my Palms started hurting .

I put the van in reverse and drove off to the cinema where I was supposed to meet Dani .

I had already bought the stupid tickets and might as well go cry myself while watching the stupid movie.

I park outside the cinema and stay inside the van listening to music .Then I got a message .

D:"hey can we talk in person please ."

I answer so fucking fast I didn't even know if was typing correctly my fingers just type so fucking fast .

E:"Yes I'm here at the cinema ,if you want to meet here ."

I replied hoping I didn't sound like a dumbass for coming to the movies alone.

D:"really ?cause I'm here too lol."

I got out of my van instantly looking around for Dani ,I found her parked a few spaces down from me .

When she saw me she smiled and started walking towards me looking around her surroundings.

I'm guessing to make sure know-one was looking our way .

"Hey ." She said

"Hi sweetheart." She smile

Then look down looking  at her hands I guess hiding her red cheeks .

"I'm sorry for pushing you away Edward ."

"I would never want to do anything to put you in trouble Dani ."I say softly leaning closer to her

I wanted to kiss her but first I checked around to see if anyone was around .

When the coast was clear I cupped her face and kissed her softly as she wrapped her hands around my neck pulling me closer to her .

I pull away and rest my forehead on Hers.

At that moment I promised myself that I was going to Graduate so I would be able to be with Dani. I don't know if I was gonna be able to contain myself every-time I saw her, especially having her as my teacher .

Maybe I should just transfer to another class .

But at the same time I didn't want to because at least I'll get to see her. I know this was wrong but why did it feel so right ?.

What was I gonna do ?

So that afternoon I made her a promise to graduate so we can be able to be together ...

And that's what I was going to do..

A/n Happy reading 📖