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                    “   just fucking do it, it’s not that difficult.  think harder than you already are and you’ll hurt yourself out of exertion: obviously, i’m the one in charge of the brawn here, but maybe it’s going to have to shift to a position where i’m also the brains.   ”

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ok .. 

I have talked about being pan before , but holy shit !! 

I WISH I COULD TELL MY FAMILY..

My eldest sister kinda knows (but she’s the cool sister) 

I fucking hate always talking in circles when it comes to gay rights and everything..

I hate hating myself ... Well not really myself the people I like.. 

I really just wanna grab my mom’s face and SCREAM IN HER FACE” I AM PAN AND YOU HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT!!”

i FUCKING HATE THIS SHIT !! 

My mom was always so supportive but she also had a way of bullying me at least once or twice  day and nobody saw it. She would say “ You are so fat” , “Your skin is so horrible , you definitely have your father’s skin”, she also once said something bad abpout my best friends brother who is gay and I FUCKING LOST IT , and she sarcastically went “So what you are a gay too know??” AND I ALMOST WENT HELL FUCKING YEAH I AM !!!  . She even went to a good friend of mine and told her how she wished her daughter was as small as her..

Now last year I was in Matric (Senior year) . And we also have prom.. But it’s called Matric Farewell, anywho she put me on such a strict diet that I was losing weight so fucking drastically that my dress was so big for me ( IT WAS ALREADY ALTERED!!) And she had the audacity to call me fat. i WAS THE SKINNIEST I have been ... She did the same things to my sisters..

I was so scarred to eat that my friends gave me candy in secret or even a sandwich. I also ate doughnuts and then threw them up afterwards..  

My therapist once told me to look up statues of old Greek and Roman goddesses .. So I did and all of them had rolls when sitting they didn’t have skinny arms or thighs...

And I just sobbed , he told me I am as beautiful as any woman there is on this earth.. 

So that the lesson DON’T LISTEN TO ONE PERSON’S OPINION OF YOURSELF