#harryfictive

most people dont really call us by our individual names. usually, we get the collective names, if people call us by any name.

but lills and i keep just. calling eachother by our own names. and its so nice. its so nice hearing (or reading, i guess) harry, or harold. its so much nicer than hearing six, or even caspian and guinevere.

i like being harry. i hope lills likes being lills. its nice, being called your own name.

- harry, scp fictive. #😶🎥

youre so close, but so far. i can talk to you, if i want. i could message you now.

but i dont know you anymore. you were my best friend since i was 9, and now i dont even know your favourite colour. (it used to be blue. i think) weve been through so much, in every universe, but i didnt remember your middle name till i read it in a tale.

i miss you. i love you. did i ever know you?

and i think the worst part of it all is the fact i cant stay. our system doesnt work like that. its cyclical, we change. i wont be here, someday soon. and so i want to milk every moment with you, but do you want that?

if you see this, which you probably will - i know you send things here as well - its not your fault i feel this way. this brain is... its messing with me, the same way im sure yours is messing with yours.

i love you, lils. i hope we can get to know eachother again.

- harry, scp fictive.

hey lills. happy birthday.

no clue if this will post before or after ive wished you one in person, but either way, i wanted to say it here, too.

i cant find how old were gonna be, but by now we must be nearly 60, if not actually 60 years old.

weve known eachother for so long. i think this is going to be the first birthday i celebrate without you since i was 9.

i love you. im so glad that we met eachother in this life as well, although i wish we could still be near eachother.

youre my very best friend. in every life, in every universe, you will always be my best friend. in every timeline, weve been there for eachother. i hope that will always be the case.

happy birthday, lills. im glad were here. heres to another sixtyish years, yeah?

- harry, scp fictive. #😶🎥

shes been my best friend since we were 9. she was there when my parents kicked me out, she was there when my anomaly kicked in, she was there when every big event in my life happened. for as long as i can remember, shes been there for me to turn to when im upset, and i hope that the same can be said for her.

(well, maybe not the "as long as i can remember" bit, considering the whole literally perfect memory. but the rest of it!)

i am a very physical person. i lean on, hold on, attach myself to those i care for. unfortunately, lills and i are now seperated, not only by space (if not very much) but also time. the body ive been put in is a teenager. we cant meet with any of my friends, and i cant hold onto my best friend.

i dont know. this makes me sad. (insofar as our emotionally detached body can be sad) i want to be able to curl up with her, lean on her as we play video games, hold her hand and hug her.

but i cant.

love you lills. hopefully (in a few years - we do have basic internet safety) in the future well be able to meet up in person.

- harry, scp fictive. #😶🎥

- harry

its just. i spent so long trying to hide it. managing to hide it. even lills only knew because she was there when it started. if id had it my way not even she would have known. although i am glad she did, because it made telling mel and al so much easier when i had to.

but. now i dont need to hide it. theres no foundation i need to hide it from. theres no cages to lock me in until i can be useful. no ones going to try and seperate me from my friends. (more than already seperated....)

that anxiety is still there, though. thats why i became an archivist. i have anxiety. that and i love reading.

so i dont think im going to open up about my anomaly just yet. maybe someday.

- harry, scp fictive. still cant be bothered to make a tag.

we havent had sourcemates outside of our own system since we broke up with our ex. so, a good year, now. and its been good! mostly. weve always been happier being self-sufficient.

but. then i fronted. and i have a sourcemate. maybe not necessarily a canonmate, seeing as im from there is no cannon and she isnt. but shes still my best friend.

and at first i was scared. how do i interact with you? as the previous ask i sent in shows, i had a lot of feelings.

but actually talking to her... shes my best friend. in every timeline. i dont really care what my headmates feel. they dont need to feel the same way as i do about her.

i have my best friend back. i dont really need to worry about anything else, really.

- harry, scp fictive. (i should probably make a custom tag if im gonna keep sending asks here. maybe next time)

It is, however, rather amusing that I explicitly remembered being permanently a 3rd wheel for almost everyone I knew.

Then of course there was the beard situation with Uma, which was because she was tired of boys flirting with her despite making it clear that she was a lesbian (she kept me around as a way to tell them to basically fuck off since she didn't have the time. She WAS rather busy, after all. Being pirate queen and all. Of course we were good friends, outside of that "back off" deal.)

Oh, but don't get me wrong.

I tried.

I tried many, many times on both the Isle and in Auradon to date and fall in love. Boys, girls, whoever would in all honesty. Surprisingly pirates were popular among Auradon population... and I just could not fall in love with any of them. And yet in that time, whatever God or Gods that exist decided I could flirt very well, despite NEVER falling in love with anyone, in any form.

I was a good wingman though, apparently...

But it's amusing to me, seeing confessions of people who say: "Oh I had such a good partner" and my version of that is just: "I was most Auradon girl's aroace bestie that they just sort of brought to their girl days"

And in all honestly, I loved being a third wheel, I liked seeing my friends enjoy their relationships, it was like a personally-catered-to-me romance movie that I could watch play out in real time.

It was surprisingly adorable to watch play out in real time, despite not really wanting any of it for myself.

– A Harry [Descendants 2*] fictive ⚔️⚓️

*I have mems of 2 and 3, so I am unsure what to label myself as.*

Anonymous asked: Sorry, just wanted to add onto that ask real quick, if that Jane who made the confession aboht being with me in her canon I hope that my confession doesn't irritate you, honestly that's cool, and I hope the relationship was nice. I personally just can't fall in love. 🥲