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activity check #o1 - emotional culturing class
The strike of the clock indicated that it was the start of classes. She was nervous for this one, hands sweaty and clasped together. They were as white as her face as she watched each individual stepped in front of the class. There was very little time for preparation. The goal was to act out one time they've felt the most vulnerable and without words, communicate with each person in the room with their eyes. It was a test to measure their capability of awakening a single emotion. If possible many. Fear, sadness, repulsiveness at the state they have deteriorated into. Vulnerability was both a release and a prison. And their task, as actors, was to emobody this emotion.
Haena was shaking slightly. She had spent the last few days trying to think of a time in which she did feel vulnerable. The young freshman wasn't sure if she was ready for this kind of task. It was too hard and she wasn't the only one who thought so. As her turn neared she could only fidget in her seat and think.
"Are you alright, Hae? You look pale..." A classmate asked, offering her some of the candy in her pocket.
Haena took it in her hand and opened it gingerly. "I'm alright. Just...nervous. This task is hard."
"Yeah, it is. But don't you think it's an opportunity as well? Acting is a way of expressing yourself, you know. And you don't need to say anything either for this assignment," she paused, shrugging. "The memory is all yours. You just have to make us see it and interpret it as the audience."
She considered this, smiling a little as she popped the candy in her mouth. She rolled it around her mouth using her tongue, the clicking against her teeth calming her a bit.
"That's...a weird way to view it," she said finally.
The next person was a guy in her class that was easily noticed due to his height and pasty white complexion. He was skilled in passionate acting and he acted with his whole body. Now that he was sitting still and just communicating with his eyes, Haena wondered how he was going to perform in front of them and simply watched.
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The picture faded into darkness. She was alone with only a stuffed animal in her hand. Lost. The word meant various things but it applied to the little girl losing her way home.
She was tinier than the rest of her peers, limbs thin and shaking as the rain poured heavily on her tiny frame. Hair tied in pigtails now weighed heavily on her shoulders, wet. She gripped her school bag tight as she trudged her way back to where she came from.
But where was it? Did she take a left after that trash bin? Was that house the same house she saw a few minutes ago? What if it wasn't? What if she walked towards and past it she was in another place entirely? What if she was being sucked further into a place she didn't and couldn't know where?
She took a seat on one of the benches facing the road, watching as each car passed by her. And she tried in that way that children tried to hold back tears even if they were already falling. With her tiny fist she wiped them away one after the other and bit her lip to stop from wailing. She would stay strong and find her way back. And when she was back, she'll be home and warm. Thinking about this only made her cry further, however, and she hated herself for being so weak.
"Honey!"
"Honey!!!"
She looked up, looking at the source of the voice. A child as small as her was running towards her in the rain, holding her umbrella with both hands. The little girl with untidy pigtails and eyes red with tears looked at the other girl, her face lighting up. When the distance was closed between them she started crying in front of the other, showing her how scared and alone she felt. How she tried to be strong all along and now that she was saved she was okay. Everthing was okay now.
It was brief and she didn't know what happened. Her eyes were closed but when they opened just as the warm sensation left her lips, she saw the other's face in front of her.
"I didn't know how to stop you from crying."
And she smiled, looking at the startled girl with her sad, sad eyes as she stole one of her firsts.
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"Kang Haena ssi?"
She was sucked back to reality and she looked at her teacher and her classmates. Everyone had different emotions written in their faces. Some didn't exactly know what was happening but they all gather together in clapping. Haena, now her usual self, stood up and smiled. She bowed down at everyone and resumed her seat beside the girl who gave her the candy. The look on her face was weird and Haena asked her why she looked like that.
"I can't believe you didn't prepare for that."
"I...I just tried to remember that one time when a girl stole my first kiss." She said in her defense, furrowing her eyebrows in confusion. "I don't know why, out of all the memories I have, I remembered that one."
She heard a scoff from the other girl. "You must've felt like you've been robbed of something precious. It is your first kiss after all."
"Yeah but--" Haena cut herself off, not really sure what she was going to say after.
It was the feeling of finally being able to let it all out. Trusting someone enough to see your soul and raw emotions. That's what kind of vulnerability it felt like. Like coming home and putting down your mask.
"Oh, it's my turn. Wish me luck!"
Haena nodded at the girl and watched her go down the stairs, taking a seat in front of them. She didn't know what her friend did. All she could do was think about that memory that seemed to have hidden in her consciousness again. Haena felt as if it'll be a while before she recalls it again.















