#greyout

hey, we’re not sure what this question means entirely.

if a memory was made, and you have access to that memory, it’s probably not a blackout.

if a memory was made, and afterwards you don’t have access to that memory anymore, it could be a blackout. in our system sometimes memories remain, but they’re held on to by certain alters. for example, i might start playing video games, then suddenly realize i’m in bed with teeth brushed and chores finished. i might not be able to remember doing the chores or brushing our teeth, but a part of our system (likely ralsei) would have that memory. in this way, the memory remains, but i still experienced a blackout.

we can also have events that happen where, afterwards, we can recall some factual information about what happened without being able to recall any sensory details. this sounds kind of like what you’re describing? and we’ve also called this a blackout in the past.

we’ll link our post on dissociative amnesia here, which has some of our experiences with blackouts vs. greyouts:

honestly that post ^ is going to have more in depth info about blackouts than we can really describe right now. sorry about this.

What is fakeclaiming?

I recently realized that we speak about fakeclaiming a lot on our account but we've never defined it. So for those who don't know what fakeclaiming is, it is the act of saying someone is faking a disorder for whatever reason. Whether this be how they look, how they act (this is dependent on the disorder), whether they see symptoms, etc. With systems, it is unfortunately very common. It's often singlets with systems but that doesn't exclude systems fakeclaiming other systems. Either way, it's bad. I would like to publically state we are anti-fakeclaiming without proof.

Now onto the amnesia part

Amnesia varies. It's as simple as that. It varies from system to system and even from time to time in each system. All systems experience amnesia, whether it be blackouts/greyouts or emotional amnesia. Amnesia comes as it's needed. If there's something your brain doesn't feel like you can handle, you probably won't remember it (if you're in a system). It's also important to remember that covert and overt systems often experience amnesia very differently.

For example, we are a mostly covert system in real life. (We try to open up and unmask more online.) Because of this, our brain allows us to remember important passwords, teachers, friends, and the family we see on a daily basis or frequently. This includes our phone password, laptop password, and locker combination. If we didn't remember them, or the people I've previously mentioned, it would open us up to more abuse and trauma because of not remembering. And because of that, we remember. We remember to keep us safe. Not to mention, we typically have vague ideas of what happened unless we're pulled from front because of flashbacks. Amnesia varies due to stress, flashbacks, trauma, etc. On our better days, we have some less vague and more "together" memories that resemble a lot of OSDD-1b amnesia. On the worse days, we experience total blackouts. Othertimes, we'll have amnesia for when we were in front due to whatever reason (we call these memory blocks).