#gothamkin

Ed, I… I know you’re probably not out there. Hell this show ended a good number of years ago, part of me doubts there’s any Eds around who haven’t found their own Oswalds. I’ve never been good with communicating my feelings regardless so this is going to sound messy, I think. But I’ll say this now.

I loved you more than anything else in the world at that moment in time. I loved you just as much as I had loved anyone I had cared about. And if I had really cared then I shouldn’t have done anything. I should have let you be happy. Because that’s what someone does when they’re in love. But I was ignorant and childish and I just wanted to see you smile at me more, to accompany me more. You really were what kept me going.

One of the things I personally remember of my time as mayor was you trying to help me with my paranoia. And I remember looking at you and wishing that you’d forever be with me. I felt at peace for once in my life. No trouble. No hostility. Just peace.

I don’t know how we ended. I don’t know if we ended up partners in crime or in a relationship. But dear god, you’ll always be my heart.

What’s a bullet between people in the end? I miss you.

— Oswald Cobblepot (Gotham) #📺🎙💥

I am Oswald Cobblepot. No, not kin with him. I’m a fictive headmate. As are my Edward and Jerome (we aren’t going to talk about my Jerome, however)

Lately, I’ve been... quite upset over the absence of a few certain individuals in my life. People I don’t know how I managed to live without. With that being said, I am desperately looking for my Martin. Or just... Martin. I miss him. I wish I could’ve given him the life he deserved, but circumstances just did not allow. I see him as a son, even still. As does Edward. I miss my best friend.

Additionally, I have always been searching for my mother. It goes without saying that it’s hard living without her. I want to tell her how sorry I am. And that I love her. I just want to make sure she knows that.

“ i’m strong as a rock, but a word can destroy me. what am i? “

moodboard for ed nygma from gotham

(for anon)

Oswald Cobblepot (Gotham): Homoromatic Demisexual

Jim Moriarty (Sherlock): Aromantic Homosexual

Christian Reed (Non-Canon from Gotham): FTM Transman who was just plan confused with romance but definitely Androsexual