#gendervent

You know you picked the right name if whenever anyone calls you by it you get so much fucking euphoria it's totally fucking electric every nerve lights up you feel like you're leaning over a cliff while the updraft pushes you back and keeps you from falling you know it's the right name when hearing it makes you feel like you just fucking snorted a line of coke you know it's the right name when you could hoot and howl with joy when you hear it from your buddies' voices you know it's the right name when being called by it makes you feel like you're dancing on a live wire you know it's the right name when there's almost no better feeling in the world and almost nothing makes you feel more alive than that precious second it takes someone you love to speak two little syllables holy fuck holy fuck holy fuck I love my name I love my name I love my name

Trouble trusting my brain rn bc I'm Randomly Down in the Dumps and I would kill to get back what I had and I would kill to forget everything that happened to me and I would kill to be fucking normal I just want to be normal I want to be normal I want to be normal and if I can't be normal I want someone to tell me it'll be okay

Parents will comment on how you've gained so much confidence and you don't seem shy at all anymore and you even stand up straighter and taller and you will tell them "yeah it's because I'm a man now and I stand up straight bc I chopped my chest off" and they will say 'nO it CaN't bE JUsT thAt, itS beCAuse YoUre aLL GrOWn uP nOw' and you will have to be like "no it's 100% a gender thing, absolutely no other contributing factors" and you can practically hear their grouchy facial expression in the dead silence on the phone because they don't believe you