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Hi guys, our new video is up on YouTube. You can go watch it on https://youtu.be/YzAMN3a4sfY Let me know what you think and what you want me to talk about #FTM #f2m #trans #transpartner #ftmpartner #lgbt #lgbtq #comingout

Since you don't know me I will start from the beginning. I came out as a lesbian in 2012 when I was 18 having never dated anyone before. In 2014 I had a brief 4 month relationship with my first girlfriend, after the break up we remained friends. After that I decided to be single for a while. In December 2014 I met Luke (who was Zaan at the time) through my ex. They met through an online dating service I told her (my ex) about. I saw Luke's (then Zaan) picture on there about 3 times and skipped over it each time, I don't really know the reason though. A little more than a month after I met him we started dating. He was afraid of being in a relationship though as his previous relationships never lasted longer than 3 months. After we were together for 7 months my best friend came to visit from Cape Town. I told her about my suspicions that Zaan (Luke) might want to be a man, but that I was not entirely sure. 3 weeks later we talked about it in the car and after he heard my opinion on it he felt free to come out to me, which was not really a shock. I also felt honoured to be the first one he told. It took me a while to adjust the idea that this woman that I love so much is now to be called man and be named my boyfriend. It was especially hard because it took me 4 years to come to grips with the fact that I was a lesbian before I came out. What did this make me now? I had a series of nightmares where I dreamed that Luke left me because he thought I was not accepting him enough. I told him about this and it didn't seem to bother him. Little did I know... In March 2016 I went to Cape Town to visit my mom and my best friend. After 2 days of talking to my friend and getting all my feelings out I came to full acceptance of Luke, which he did not know as he was unable to go with me and I would not see him for 3 weeks. After a week in Cape Town Luke sent me a message saying that he is leaving me. He had a long list of excuses (which made no sense to me) one of which was the fact that I did not support or accept him. After a month of begging him to take me back and half going into a depression which was a feeling I was not used to, I made some bad decisions. I enteted into a rebound relationship with a woman 14 years older than me. She was very serious telling me she loved me and forcing me into a relationship I didn't want to be in. And this after I was open with her from the beginning about my feelings for Luke. We had a bad fight later as I was unable to tell her that I love her back, I haven't talked to her since. In the 3 months Luke and I were not together I got closer to God on my own and so did he (which was good cause we almost never went to church in the time we were together). This ultimately brought us back together. We had a rocky start but things are now better than they ever were and we are growing together in our faith now. We had our 2 year anniversary in January (with a 3 month rough patch) and we are still very happy together. This also sent me on a journey of self discovery and opened a new world with amazing people that I would have never known, let alone be a part of, if it was not for Luke and my love and commitment to him. #translove #transpartner #ftmpartner #ftmpartnersupport #mystory #ilovehim

I haven't posted about how it's going with me and Luke in a while. So here goes. We are good, better than ever before. He is more hairy and his voice is getting deeper every week. His beard is coming in slowly but surely. And he might get surgery in a few months (holding thumbs). I am excited for him getting surgery because I see how his chest dysphoria is getting him down. And nothing I can say will make it better. I try to just be here if he feels like talking and I try to support him the best way I know how. But I don't understand and never will so he gets lots of support from his trans friends which is a good thing. I like seeing all the changes he is going through and I am glad to be a part of it. He surely changed my perspective on life as I knew it. And I love him more than my brain can process. #ftm #f2m #update #transpartner #ftmpartner #translove #support

I would just like to take this chance to say thank you to all the people who helped me so far in coping with Luke's transition and for letting me help you. It really means a lot to me to see that people that genuinely care can be found :-) THANK YOU #thankyou #support #ftmpartner #transpartner

I would like to start an independent tumblr for this blog called FTM Partner Support. I have already made an email address called [email protected] if you wanted to message me. I am just not sure if going over to a new blog will be a good thing or a bad thing. Pros: The blog will get more LGBTQ relatable posts My personal posts will not appear on the blog Things I want to post on this blog will not automatically post to my personal blog Cons: It might affect my followers negatively if they cannot find my posts (it might sound self absorbed to say but I like to think I help) My personal life will be in the blog less so this might seem as just any other blog with generic posts I'm stuck, please let me know what you think. You can DM me or email me on the email above. I will add it to the blog description as well. #ftmpartner #f2mpartner #ftm partner support #ftm #f2m #thoughts

Hey everyone. I'm just checking in to say that everything is still going great :). Luke and I are house sitting again for his parents so having a chilled long weekend. I'm missing going to the gym though cause we haven't been there the last 2 days. Routine is a bit out of wack this week lol. Next weekend it's Christmas so things will probably only go back to normal in the new year. How are you guys doing? Message me or comment it doesn't matter. I want to hear from you. #ftmpartner #f2mpartner #ftm #f2m #checkingin #update #almostchristmas

I just had to take a picture of this. In the almost 2 years I have known Luke this is the first time he is actually making food for me 😂 #relationshipgoals #ilovemyboyfriend #housesitting #ftm #ftmpartner