#frustation

I'M SO UPEST RN YOU GENUINELY DON'T UNDERSTAND, I CAN'T DO ANYTHING, YES I HAVE THEIR NUMBERS AND ACCOUNTS ON DISCORD BUT STILL MY FUCKING POSTS ARE GONE , MY LIFE , MY EVERYTHING I POSTED IT'S GONE , I'M SO SO SO FUCKING MAD RIGHT NOW , " OH but it's because you're a teen so it's dangerous to talk to strangers!" THOSE "STRANGERS WERE MY ONLY FRIENDS THAT I ACTUALLY TALK TO SNF STOPPED ME FROM ACTUALLY KILLING MYSELF SIS , YOU EVER THOUGHT THAT??? ,SHE ONLY THINKS ABOUT HERSELF , I KNOW SHE Meant WELL BUT THOSE " STRANGERS" ARE MY AGE , THEY MADE ME FEEL FUCKING HAPPY AND NOT INSECURE I FELT OKAY , AND NOW I'M BACK AT ZERO BECAUSE YOU WANTED TO BE A PARENT ALL THE SUDDEN , NOS I MIGHT ACTUALLY GO BACK TO SELF HARM BECAUSE OF HER AND IF I WAS BRAVE ENOUGH TO JUMP RN I FUCKING WOULD BUT I CAN'T NOW BECAUSE I WILL FEEL GUILTY , I FUCKING CAN'T STAND THIS LIFE , I WANT TO SCREAM AND YELL AT HER FOR ALWAYS RUINING THINGS AND BEING IN MY BUSINESS ,I CAN'T POST FREELY ANYMORE OR ELSE SHE MIGHT FIND MY ACC AMD I DON'T WANT THAT I'M FUCKING UPSET SO UPEST SND WANT TO SCREAM AND YELL , I JUST WANT A QUIET PLACE WHERE I CAN SCREAM HOW MUCH I HATE MY LIFE , I GENUINELY WANT TO CRY AND SCREAM BUT I FUCKING CAN'T, BECAUSE EVERYONE IS HOME , THEY SRE ALWAYS HOME WHEN I'M UPEST BUT NEVER WHEN I'M HAPLY AMD ACTUALLY WANT THEIR COMPANY!! , " why don't you ever sit with us?" BECAUSE YOU NEVER SPENT TIME WITH ME SINCE I WAS FIVE , I WAS LITERALLY MAKING UP FRIENDS IN MY HEAD BECAUSE I WAS SO LONELY AMD SUDDENLY THEY ALL WANT ME AROUND THEM AND I CAN'T DO SHIT , I HATE THIS AND I HATE THEM , IF THEY NEVER IGNORED ME AND ACTUALLY RAISED ME INSTEAD OF LETTING ME RAISE MYSELF I WOULD BE SO MUCH BETTER , I WOULDN'T BE THIS UPEST OVER THIS KIND OF STUFF I FUCKING HATE THIS, HOW AM I NOW SUPPOSED TO ACT NORMAL AROUND HER AFTER WHAT SHE DID , I HATE I CAN'T DO ANYTHING, I CAN'T DEFEND MYSELF OR ELSE I'M JUST BEING RUDE , AMD TODAY IS MY DAD'S BIRTHDAY AND I DON'T WANT GO RUIN ANYTHING BUT FUCK, AMD THEY WOULD PROBABLY TAKE MY PHONE TOO , THIS THING IS WHAT IS KEEPING YOUR DAMN DAUGHTER ALIVE, YOU'RE JUST GIVING ME MORE REASONS TO WRITE FOR WHEN I ACTUALLY DISAPPEAR I CAN'T STAND ANY OF YOU , AND THEN COMES MY MOM ASKING WHAT'S WRONG , LIKE PLEASE I LOVE YOU MOM BUT GET OUT MY BUSINESS FOR ONCE , YOU ASK SO MANY DAMN QUESTIONS I CAN'T STAND IT , I'M FUCKING CRYING AND I WAMT TO SCREAM HOW MAD I SM BUT I CAN'T DO IT OR ELSE I'M THE VILLAIN AND WORST PART I'M BAD AT EXPRESSING MYSELF WITH WORDS SND THEY WON'T UNDERSTAND, I KNOW SHE MEANT WELL BUT I'M LITERALLY NOT A CHILD , SHE DOESN'T HAVE THE RIGHT FO TELL ME ANYTHING, I'M CRYING AS I'M WRITING THIS I HATE THIS , AMD MY IRL FRIENDS ARE DON'T KNOW ME AS MUCH AS MY ONLINE FRIENDS DO , WE HAVE NOTHING IN COMMON , AND NOW I HAVE NO ONE TO KEEP ME FROM ACTUALLY DOING SOMETHING BAD RIGHT NOW , I WANT TO DISAPPEAR IN ANY WAY

I don't blame them btw, I love autumn more to, but I'm literally so bored and I've been itching for some summer fun since last year the tsunami warning ruined my beach plans. I need to do SOMETHING for the Summer besides sleeping or going to that Volunteer Program where most of our outings are to be in or as close to Fresno County as possible.

Ces séances d'intense excitation suivies d'un déni d'orgasme, ne pas jouir après avoir fait jouir sa compagne ? Où est-ce le contrôle qu'il abandonne sur sa vie sexuelle ?

Dans les faits, jouir où ne pas jouir n'est pas important en soi. Bien entendu, toutes les cellules de son corps veulent jouir à l'issue d'un rapport sexuel, elles veulent jouir et opposent à sa volonté un choix cornélien: satisfaire ses instincts où souffrir et rester chaste un peu plus longtemps. À cet instant précis, il est très difficile d'avoir la volonté de ne pas jouir, il ne suffirait de pas grand-chose, un mouvement de plus, quelques minutes et la libération salvatrice. Ce sont des sentiments très forts, des impressions très intenses à vivre et tout homme qui ne les a pas connus est à plaindre

Mais ce que recherchent ces hommes avant tout, c'est la perte du contrôle, le fait de laisser à leur compagne ce choix de jouissance ou d'abstinence lorsque cette question se pose. Parce qu'ils savent qu'ils n'ont pas la volonté de le faire seul, qu'ils ne pensent plus comme il faut pour se raisonner. En confiant cette question à leur compagne, ils savent qu'un esprit peut-être plus calme pourra décider de façon plus appropriée.

Lorsqu'il est prêt à jouir, là, étendu à l'extrême limite. Qu'il a tout donné et qu'il pourrait jouir à son tour. II souffre, car ne pas jouir en grand état d'excitation est véritablement une souffrance physique et morale, la solution la plus simple serait de le libérer, de faire ces quelques mouvements, de donner ces quelques minutes qui vont le libérer. Pourtant, ce n'est pas ce qu'il veut. Il vous supplie de le laisser jouir mais il espère que vous lui refuserez ce droit une fois encore.

Mes dames, n'oubliez pas qu'en acceptant le contrôle de sa vie sexuelle, vous acceptez d'utiliser ce contrôle et donc de ne pas toujours faire le choix qu'il ferait lui même. Croyez-le, quoi que vous choisissiez, il aimera cela.

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