#fredkin

Other Freds out there- we are strong we are fighters and we did not disserve the ends on screen gave us.

Gunn- Sweet sweet Gunn, what happened to me was not your fault. You didn't know what you were signing and that's ok. I do not blame you.

Wesley- I may not have loved you in my timeline but I still hold great affection for you and you disserve to be happy. Know that you were happy in my timeline and once the fire died down you and Cordelia had a lovely domestic life.

Cordelia- My bestie, you also disserve so much more than what the on-screen cannon gave you. It is not your fault our creator was so horrible to your actress. If it helps any in my timeline you continued to be a badass and kicked much demon butt in that final(ish) battle.

Angel- my boss, my friend, you try so hard and I see that. While I can never apologies for the way Spike and I were in my timeline, know that the PDA wasn't out of disrespect to you. I still think you are a champion for what it's worth.

Lorne- Lovely lovely Lorne, though you don't enter my memories very often I see you as a bright spot. You always did the best you can as well and that's more powerful than you know.

Harmony- You are such a sweetheart, I don't blame you or hate you. Even thought I went all "grr" that one time in my timeline it was mostly sire feelings. I thank you for being the exception to the no-soul = "bad" rule they tried to paint.

Spike- My love, you disserve so much better than how you were treated. No matter what timeline. Weather that be a better Buffy, a Better Dru, Angel ,or my own Spike (I miss you so much). I do not blame you for the end of s6 of btvs either.

Buffy- I may be hard on you in my mind sometimes but it's just left over from my sire feelings, you are a lovely person and I admire your strong morals.

Willow- I cannot thank you enough for how many times you saved both Spike and I. You are so, so sweet but strong at the same time.

Xander- I don't blame you for being his self-insert at all. You are a sweetheart.

Anya- I wish I had known you, you did so much and seemed like such fun to be with.

anyone else I missed know that you are valid and do not disserve to be hated on because of our creator.

I wish there was footage of us kissing or anything intimate

it can just be platonically intimate I don't care

had some complex thoughts after so I think I triggered some memories.

I don't think I want to relive being back there, gleaning what it was from fanfic is enough for me.

I wish I wasn't handling this alone

I wish I had him with me