#fml tbh

trick or treating sucked???? WHAT? i went w two friends and my sister by ourself for the first time and like idk.. my friend couldn’t see in her costume so she changed out of it after a few houses so like it was weird trick or treating w someoen not in costume. then my other friend and sister just kept walking ahead of us kinda like leaving us behind. then my sisters friends came and join us and their all very kind but me and alan (fake name) just were left behind and my other friend (‘ken’) said he felt left out but kept with them instead of hanging w us and i just felt like shit cuz i invited him and he’d rather hang out with my sister and her stranger friends than me. and he kept smoking the whole time. which felt odd yk? and there was no one else on the streets and my costume sucked and people gave us less candy cuz we’re older and it didn’t feel fun. i thought we’d watch a horror movie and eat teh pizza and donuts i got but they just went home and now i’m sitting here w a cup of water to watch sam and colby. we didn’t do any candy trading or gambling. we didn’t argue about who’d ring the doorbell. we didn’t elaborately plan our costumes for months together. i felt so bad for alan; she’s older than us and has made a lot more friends and they invited her to come with them and she declined to go with us and even she felt left out and bored the whole time. how shitty am i ?????????

I’ve been in the shower… imagining scenarios that would make me cry in real life… and then actually crying about them. Despite them not actually happening…

Anyone else do that or am I just bizarre?

Lord help me if I ever do get pregnant. If this is the sort of mess I am when I’m not! 🙄