#findingstrength

Lesson learnt

The core of its crux

Lesson being the only one

And nothing but doubt has came about

Lesson learnt

A consuming weight upon shoulders

A crushing course seeking its wonders

A dull thump of emotions has finally came to utters

Lesson learnt

Or so it has spoken

A broken heart and tears of crystals

Cold stone and wilderness walls of entrapment

Seeking nothing but utter justice

But lesson learnt

And all its wonders

Crumble to nothing but dust

Floating above all its alters

Leaving the heart in its own justice

Though the thought never really was there

But a small blustering light makes its way

Only for it to be shut out

I still got better, though I was suffering. I still got better. I was even put to sleep wrong through a couple surgeries, I still healed I think. Anesthesia and Euthanization are obviously complicated subjects with me. Also, warning: Dare I say triggering? This is someone that stuck with me ride or die through all my adult life trauma, addiction, destruction and the years of unending loudass music it gave birth to. He's not crying or in agony that I can tell, is it so cruel of me to not want to inject him with any outside adulterants and be here with him for a moment. However long that is?

I feel like I have time and there's no need to play or pay doctor. I've always believed in diving timing and trusting both patterns and numerology, and found my way full faith in it. Most times without memory because of a condition called retrograde amnesia. This video I feel blessed I just found is the most perfect and positive day, with my beloved rescued, turned rescuer "cat down the road" - Working out a riff idea while Panda chills happily behind me, as an old friend Nolan Morrow staying on my couch talks out my drum machine setup and I learn some #spiritscience

I will miss you till our paths meet again,

"Until Valhalla!!"

🐼😻♥️

Panda, My favourite Norwegian forest cat friend, my coincidencentally rescued "cat down the road". Please lend me your strength and cool while I try to navigate this #roadtorecovery

Here's a song off of my first EP made with my first cat Freddie's pur:

Sometime in the future I'll share a song I made for my next pet Kitty Mercury that I called Left Behind. With Freddie Mercury and Panda, there have always been kitties around me when I've been creating, many times getting me to take a break and pet them

Blessed Be everyone, I hope I didn't leave anyone feeling down and please comment or pm about your moments of mental health, or wealth. I will come out of this stronger: I dropped a single Tarot twice yesterday: the Strength card both times. I drew temperance next time I consulted my cards. I'm blessed that this special guy will have taught me alot about both once I get back to feeling better and have some normalcy again. Have an excellent new year with your loved ones. Cherish every moment of it my friends! 🙏♥️🌹🛣️

- @rosyrhodes

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