#finding solace

Finding Solace

Chiderah Bosah

Just a girl who loves sunsets 🌞 and ocean waves🌊

✨It's one of those quiet nights again, just you and your f/o in each others company. No noise, no distractions, no people. Just you, them, and a comfortable stillness between you. You decide to go on a late night walk/drive together. The two of you find a nice vantage point, getting a lovely view of the (city, kingdom, etc) lights far off in the distance. You spend all night stargazing and having deep conversation about what lies in your hearts. Taking advantage of such a peaceful night.✨

I sat with my thoughts today

and wondered if maybe

I am meant to walk this life alone.

And strangely,

that thought no longer scares me.

Of course,

it would be nice to have someone beside me

someone whose hand fits perfectly in mine,

someone to hold,

someone who loves me

and is loved in return.

But perhaps that isn’t the chapter

I’m meant to be living right now.

A year and six months alone

has taught me something unexpected:

peace.

Not every day is easy.

There are still moments

when I long for a hand to hold,

a shoulder to lean against,

someone to curl into

after a long day.

But in the quiet,

I found healing.

I found room to breathe,

room to reflect,

room to become someone new.

The person I was

used to hide behind insecurities,

afraid of being seen,

afraid of taking up space.

Now I wear the shorts

I once convinced myself I couldn’t.

Now I step into the world

with a little more confidence,

a little more courage,

a little more of myself.

I’ve changed in ways

I never thought possible,

and for the first time

I’m excited to see

who I’ll become next.

Losing you

was one of the hardest things

I’ve ever endured.

It broke me,

shook me,

left me standing among pieces

I didn’t know how to put back together.

But somewhere in that heartbreak,

while I was mourning us,

I found me.

And while losing you

has been painful,

finding myself

has been beautiful.

I used to be afraid of so many things.

Now I am learning

that courage isn’t the absence of fear

it’s choosing to live anyway.

And for the first time in a long time,

I am excited

for the life that still awaits me.

Watercolor painting🖌️🎨... Inspired from Pinterest...

A breezy landscape..