Today I felt like quitting...
Week 5 starts today… now you may ask me why I felt like quitting when I’ve been at this for a month so far… I’ve sacrificed time, diet, and freedom for this lifestyle and why would I give up on the 5th week??
Yesterday, Sunday I had a cheat meal. I ate Chipotle for dinner. Well I also did that last Sunday for the very first time. On Monday, I felt awesome… today, on this Monday, I felt like crap. I felt bloated, overweight, gained 2lbs, and my progress photos looked like the first day I started. If all of this can be undone in one cheat meal, what am I doing this for?? That’s what I thought initially… frantically I texted my husband to find out his opinion… and as always, he has a cool approach to all of my rants… he says, “ it was 1 meal, 1 day… you’ll be fine!”
That’s not what I felt, or how I felt. Saturday, before the cheat meal I felt amazing! I felt some real true progress… and looked like I had really gained some muscle! Today not so much… how can all of that hard work go away in one day??
I’m still a novice when it comes to training hard, and eating clean… so I’m not sure how my body reacts to cheat meals and whatnot. Usually my body adapts to things rather quickly and what I did 2 weeks ago has no effect on me 2 weeks later. I’m constantly in search of improvement and alternative things to do because my body is a quick learner. This morning I made a drastic decision… no more cheat meals! If I end up doing a cheat meal, it’s going to be every 3 weeks at least… I don’t want to compromise my results, and in the process feel bad all at the same time.
Well the day progressed needless to say... my pity party I threw this morning didn’t last that long. I ended up putting on a dress that made me feel like a million bucks... I went to the gym after work and put forth my best effort... today won’t be a quitting day.
We all go through the emotional roller coaster of getting back into shape... especially if we were far from the shape we pictured ourselves to be in. It’s normal... and okay to feel overwhelmed and lost and confused about your progress. I know for me, it’s a constant up and down... but I guess that’s just how I’m wired...
I can’t let all this hard work be gone for nothing... especially with everything I’ve done to change my diet and workout routine. I’d be crazy! One good thing though that has made me feel a little better, is that on Saturday I got my body fat measured and I’m not as fat or out of shape as I thought I was!!
Tomorrow I will post progress photos and get back on the horse... let’s do this! No more falling off the emotional roller coaster! *no guarantees though! LOL!*
I truly should read my own fitness motivation reblogs, and maybe that will help me! ONE DAY AT A TIME! WE’LL GET THERE!
