this is my first fic/ oneshot? and english is not my first language sooo sorry if it's bad, if any of you got any request leave it in the comments along with a like (didn't wanna post it in ao3 cus I got exams and I don't want to get cursed)
first night at your apartment (future-present time)
Fem reader, fluff, sexual tension, mommy issues?, stablish relationship, naked bodies, personal
one-shot "kissing away the past":
Strange as it was the past week for Fidelis he was content on how things ended, after almost dying more than a couple of times and having to deal with those three shitheads always pestering HIS little venus, at last he had her all to himself, she choose him, HIM who was never even consider he won fair and square, even though he wouldn't have minded getting rid of each one of them, they weren't enough for her they couldn't love her not like he would and now he was planning on enjoying her
"so this is your home?" he said allowing himself to look around her things, it was cozy and very decorated by his taste still he like it, it felt warm
"yeah you like it? come sit with me on the sofa" she guides him to this 'sofa' it seem like a long chair made of pillows? he questions himself "yeah I do like it, it's so you, it's pretty and warm just like you pulchella" Fidelis hears your giggles as he sit by your side placing his hand in your soft thigh squeezing it a little, Fidelis feels how you placed your hand on his cheek with a tenderness he had never felt before, not even from you and you proceed to pass your knees above his tighs not quite sitting on him, though he wouldn't really care, -my pulchella the most beautiful girl in the world and I have her all to myself now, it feels like a dream of which I don't want to wake up-, he thinks proudly
"Thank you for being by my side all this time I don't think I would've complete the mission without your help, thanks" how sweet, he thinks smiling to himself "your welcome but i like taking care of you" he responded "I know but tonight I want to be the one taking care of you" you said poking his shoulder while you squeeze his cheek "come here, let me spoil you" you say before giving him a quick peck in his nose
"Even though I loved some pampering coming from you I rather worship your body my little Venus" he said fixing your position in his lap
you quickly answer "Fidelis, my love I know you are eager and I'll give you what you want but not tonight, tonight I want to give you the rest that you need, let me take care of you please domine~" he hears your whispers like a purr you feel so close to him, Fidelis wants nothing more than to hold you in his arms all night "you can do whatever you wish to me my little Venus the only thing I asked of you is to be mine forever..." -for eternity, I need this beautiful woman by my side, I'll do whatever it takes in order to keep her- his thoughts were interrupted by her sweet giggling and he feels your hands in his face "Fidelis I'm already yours, my domine all that I want is to treat you how you deserve" Fidelis stay quiet, thinking in how your smile is fill with so much kindness and love? no one ever saw him like that, let alone touch him with such care and Fidelis is left wondering -what exactly does she think I deserve- after all you said you wanted to take care of him, Fidelis is familiar to the term but he had renounce that idea after Flavia, he can't help but be expectant "follow me, lets continue on the bed" the bed? Fidelis questions to himself
you grab his calloused hand and lead him to your room where you start to undress him "I thought we weren't doing that~" Fidelis throw you a little insinuation but you plan something more romantic "we are not doing that I told you but for what I have in mind I need you in your underwear" you said smiling at him while your hands undo his belt "alright pulchella but if I'm taking my clothes off I think is fair you do too" Fidelis look at you up and down and when you agree he grab the bottom of your dress and he yank it up leaving you half naked in a swift motion "oh my, Fidelis be more careful you almost broke my dress" his deep laugh resonates making eco in your room "forgive me my little Venus I'm just eager to see what you have in storage for me"
"Ok domine please lie face down" you signal your bed while you get the lights leaving you only with the moonlight coming through your window "are you going to massage me darling?" He asked eager for your answer him, you couldn't help but giggle at the curiosity of his voice "nop something better or at least I hope you think so "
He stay silent waiting in the bed while you climb on top of him, you start caressing his back "oh Fidelis your back..." you said with sadness in your voice staring at the countless scars across his back, he stay silent you couldn't see his face but you felt him tensing, you could see the years of abuse and neglect through each healed wound, you keep touching his scars with tenderness and can't help but hug him you put your hands in his chest from behind and whisper to him "I know, I can not erease all those years you suffer but I hope this make you feel a little better about it"
I starled when I felt how she start kissing one of my scars across it's lenght "W-what are you doing Y/N?" I don't know why but even though I love feeling her kissing me, this also unsettles me deeply... is close to the emotions I feel in the battlefield when I know something bad is about to happen to me and I need to be alert.... is like I'm scared of her touch, Am I? "I want to kiss all these scars that your body hails" her voice lead me out of my thoughts, Is this what she meant by taking care of me, I know I like this, I like her warmth...I love it in fact, but why is a knot forming in the deep of my throat that force me to stay quiet
*Mwuah * I try to avoid the turmoil of my emotions *Mwuah* and make and effort to focus only in the sensations of my body *Mwuah* I hear her kisses and concentrate in her touch and the warm of her mouth combine with her saliva *Mwuah* it's starting to make me feel dizzy, Does she even realize the power she holds over me, over my body? "Fidelis!" I'm pull out of my trance by her calling "yes?" is the only thing I manage to muster in response, "I said roll over please~" she giggles as she remove her self from my back, I honestly begin to miss her weight
Fidelis do as you ask and you put yourself beween his legs so you can keep kissing his body, you start with his abdomen you could feel him tensing a little and when you look up you are greated with his face showing a very marked blush, he didn't avoid your gaze though, you keep kissing him jumping from scar to scar until you raise up to his neck you gave him a few wet kisses on his troat and jaw before looking back at him "Did you enjoy it?" you asked giving him some quick pecks in his cheek "of course...My little Venus you make me feel so good that I'm grateful for being hurted so I could share this moment with you" he didn't miss time and begins kissing you desperatly he hugs you tightly and snake one of his hands down your back so he can reach your ass, you gift a little moan, that he uses to enter your mouth and deepend his kiss you put one of your hands in his neck and the other in his cheek
after a few more seconds he feels you break the kiss to breathe, a link of saliva still connects their mouths and all Fidelis wants to do is to kiss you again "Let me return the favor pulchella" he said before bringing you close for another kiss, he feels your hands caressing the back of his head and then pulling away again "it's fine my domine I would love to but tonight I just want to make you feel good" you said twirling one of his brown locks with your index finger "I don't know what did I do to deserve you" you smile at him and give him a quick kiss on his nose before repositioned yourself on the side and holding your arms in his direction inviting him to a hug
I grab her quickly in my arms squeezing her a little "Fidelis honey come her let me hold you instead" I separeted myself to protest when I feel her arms around my neck and his soft chest in my face "Don't be so tense Fidelis or is it that you don't like being hold?" I feel the eco of that question through my mind, when was the last time I was held? my thougts find themselfs back at my time with Flavia but she didn't love me and shortly after I moved in to her house I start despising her touch so it wasn't then, maybe when I was younger a child but I don't recall much of those years, I think I was never held... not like this, not by someone who love me ''I like it...." I said briefly trying to deal with the knot in my throat
you hear that last words weaker than you expect "Are you sure honey?" you tried to pull away to see his face but Fidelis was holding to tight for you to move, and then you feel it coldness in one of your collarbones "Fidelis are you-" your question was cut of by one of his sobs, you did NOT expect that at all, you start to feel a little guilty he always seem so strong but after all those years of hardwork you realise he never let his guard down "Oh I'm sorry, Fidelis you were to strong for to long were you not..." you keep him close and hug him with your legs "you can rest know" you whisper to him giving him a kiss in his forehead
Fidelis never allow himself to be vulnerable and because of that your love felt like a splash of cold water you were to different to what he was used to, he felt so good when he was with you from the first moment you were a breath of air in the chaos of his life you reminded him that life didn't need to be hard not with you by his side you saved him and he is going to be forever grateful.
At last Fidelis had a goodnight sleep afterall he dreamt of you
