#feels war

Hey. Hey Fez. Yeah you! 

Remember this?

This wasn’t the first time Peggy had visited the decrepit, rundown shell of the place where Steve had become what he’d always been meant to be, nor did she think it would be the last. With her world falling down around her ears, she needed to feel a connection with Steve now more than ever, a connection that she hadn’t and couldn’t feel anywhere else.

She came there, to the concrete walkway overlooking the capsule that still, even now, even after these all these years, sat open, and in the back of her mind she could picture that long ago day, that moment all those years ago when Steve had stepped out of that capsule transformed physically into the person he’d always been spiritually. She almost turned and left then, but she was determined not to allow either her sorrow or the ghost of the man she loved to scare her away. She sat there in the dust and the silence, her forehead resting against the chill metal of the walkway’s railing, and talked to a man who hadn’t been anywhere near the place in years.

She talked about the last days of the original Howling Commandos, about the  impromptu funeral they’d held for him and James Barnes and how Mrs. Barnes had cried on her shoulder, unable to bear the pain of losing two of her sons at nearly the same time. She told Steve that Howard had put his headstone next to his mother’s and how, though she wasn’t much of a gardener, she had planted flowers on Sarah Rogers’ grave, because the woman who had made him into the man he was deserved something more beautiful than grass to decorate her resting place. She told him about her coworkers in the SSR, about Daniel and Thompson and Dooley, and how frustrating it was that nobody would take her seriously, despite her having proved herself a capable agent time and time again. 

She told him about Angie and Jarvis and the tyrannically uptight Miriam Fry, about how much trouble Howard was in at the moment and that since he was apparently incapable of cleaning up his own messes that responsibility had fallen to her. She could imagine Steve smiling at that, and shaking his head in exasperation at Howard’s antics. She shook her head to dispel the image and continued, describing the Captain America Adventure Hour and how she hated it, hated it because it was misrepresentation not only herself but of Steve as well.

She told him about V-E Day and Germany’s surrender. She told him about the atomic bombings of Hiroshima and Nagasaki and the subsequent ending of the war in the Pacific and by extension the ending of the war as a whole.

Don’t imagine little Dante losing his parents and being thrown in the orphanage cause his aunts and uncles don’t want him

little Dante meeting Kara and wonder why when he’s near her his hair sticks

little Dante confused when Kara get soaked with cold water how she shuts down and he screams covering her with his body because he knows when someone goes blue it means they are dead

little Dante staying close to Kara and sipping big lemonade in the summer

little Dante growing up quickly with gangly limbs voice cracking still best friends with Kara and feeling warmer around her

little Dante trying to date the new girl because she was nice to him once

little Dante no longer little made a man before his time

Dante shunning away from Kara because he is unclean

Dante being self destructive screaming in the middle of class and crying no longer able to hold it in

Dante learning to feel again and get better with Kara he gets warmer around Kara and doesn’t know why he figures it out and becomes scared how could he ever ask Kara to be with him when he’s so broken

Dante trying to hide his feelings etc

Sorry about the lack of art lately.

School’s been taking up most my time, and then I have Martial Arts on top of it.

Also I’ve been preoccupied because of a Feels War over on DeviantArt by my friend 10EyedSnake there, who challenged me.

So if you happen to want to see, my profile on DeviantArt is: Jujumouse (didn’t see that coming, did you?)

Wolf Children AU with Calhoun as Hana, Brad as the Wolfman (cybugman?) and two unnamed kids.