#feeling light

I wonder if I would be happy if my life was filled with non greasy but yummy burgers, just the right kind of milkshakes and unlimited fries. If Sundays with family where everyone is just happy and light and no one raises their voice would make me happy.

I wonder if yellow bowls with ramen and kdramas that talk about years I wasn’t born in would make me happy.

I wonder how this song is just perfect for the way I want to feel.

I wonder if I can find more songs like this.

I wonder if I think too much about others to ever know what I independently feel. If someone is rude to me I feel shit for one minute before I start thinking what drives them to be this way. If they are sad from the inside. I wonder what happens behind the closed doors of their home. I wonder what bothers them.

And maybe they aren’t mean because they are sad. But I’d like to believe that there’s no other reason someone would be mean.

I wonder why my brain works this much and how just one song can make me wonder so much.

Never have I heard the hummingbird

or the sound of silent sighs

but I know how we persist,

moon by moon,