#fact alterhuman

Like you can't really talk about feeling like you're from so long ago because like. Edgar Allen Poe and Alexander Hamilton have you beat on that. And you can't talk about being from now because you look at yourself now and that's not you.

I saw a picture of me and my brother today and I was like. Woah. That guy looks like Rocky in the face, but that's definitely not him. But it IS him. Because it's been YEARS, he really cleaned himself up I think but like. It shouldn't exist.

The Driver Era is not a thing, The Driver Era doesn't exist. R5 is still together, I have the time of my life performing with them. I see they're faces in my mind and-

and it's not 2013 anymore. My sister's married, my band broke up, I make music with my just brother now and-- in my opinion, that music isn't as good. It's missing everything that made our songs magical and

And people like Hamilton and Poe and Sinatra will always have a fanbase. They stand the tests of time. I'm some guy who was on Disney at the same time as other shows no one talks about anymore. Remember Dog With a Blog? Good Luck Charlie? And now that my band's broken up and been replaced by TDE, I'm more likely to meet that version. How would I explain to a Rocky factive or kin that I don't LIKE The Driver Era. That thinking about it Pisses me off. That I love Rocky, but not that version of him?

R5 is over with. It's in the past. And. I'm stuck in the past with them. By myself.

A stimboard for a serial killer fact-type with bones, meat and old technology stims.

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I know this is a blog where we post a lot of positivity, but it's okay not to be positive all the time.

It's okay to be bitter after experiencing harassment in communities that are supposed to welcome and respect you, or even be a jaded person from your past life, your present life, or both.

It's okay to be angry at your abusers and at exclusionists.

It's okay to be sad that people only befriend you for your source and don't want to get to know you as your own person.

It's okay if you lost your capacity for optimism and trust for others after being dehumanized as a "problematic" celebrity or a huge special interest or any other reason.

It's okay to be scared of making connections, there are so many spaces that don't welcome us. It's good to stay on the safe side. Block tags. Block people. Blacklist words. Take care of yourself/ves.

It's okay to be traumatized and show symptoms of it, even the "ugly" ones like angry outbursts, splitting, avoiding, or idolizing. As long as you're responsible for your own behavior, apologizing and making it up to people you may have hurt. You're not a bad person for having trauma.

It's okay to be distrustful and "edgy" as long as you're not cruel to others.

You're just fine the way you are. No matter what stage of healing you're in, or no matter if you're pursuing it now or later (and "healing" does NOT mean "behaving like a neurotypical and having 0 symptoms forever"). You deserve to have connections again, to feel safe again, but there's no pressure. You shouldn't have to force yourself/ves to be happy and sociable.

Mod Silhouette: Sometimes, I look in envy at other- and ficto-experiences.

It sounds nice to have a personal blog and talk about how your other-type or ficto-type affects your life; how you think your alterhumanity works, how your system "invited" ya, and tips on how to cope with the things we might face... talking about current sensations, and about past lives, with anonymized but identifiable details.

Meanwhile, I can't do that.

Yeah, I'm alterhuman - multiple members of my subsystem are nonhuman and I& as a subsystem don't identify as human at all. Which is why I use the fact-alterhuman label instead of factive - people often assume that all fact-experiences are human. Which ain't right for me&.

But my nonhuman experiences are also related to my fact-identity. And yet I can't publicize that! I'm a walk-in, and median not in a "facets of myself/dissociative" way, but in a "multiverse gathering" way. That's already paintin' a huge target on my back. Telling the internet that I'm [censored] from another universe would make it worse.

If I do publish my thoughts, my differences, my feelings about my counterpart (this world's version of [censored]), my experiences... I'd have to censor my own goddamn name and any other information that other people might guess it from.

But if I'm being vague like that, what personal thing could I share? What'd make it more than this blog (which is literally called "Fact-Anonymous", no less!), or more than an advice blog?

Even speakin' in this manner, talkin' like myself this way, feels like skirting the edge of a radioactive waste dump.

It's like if (for example) a wolf therian is writing a therian blog about their experiences... but without mentioning or implying they're a wolf whatsoever. They don't tell their diets or their bone structure or what gives them euphoria (gears, activities, etc.) - anything that can give the audience hints.

Ayo,

That's really fucked of them to treat you like that. You are a whole-ass person with your own thoughts, feelings and concept of identity. They have no right to tell you how to identify, or what your identity is, ya feel? Its fucked up. Period.

Also fuck that person who victim blamed you. It doesn't matter if you're less or more feminine-- your abusers are going to be abusers. That's because something is wrong with them-- not you.

Do your best to pay no mind to the ignorance and hatred of others. There will always be stupid people out there. Don't compromise your sense of identity over what they think. You deserve better than that.

And if it somehow isn't clear by now; you're allowed to deviate from your source. In fact, that's normal. You can be whatever version of yourself that you were meant to be. And if that version of you is genderqueer while your canon counterpart is a cis man? Thats completely okay.

Hang in there. There are people around you who care about you.

For example, our Gem fictive finds it amusing to find rocks and crystals and take pictures with them. A streamer factkin might enjoy documenting themself wearing their source's merch.

And me? I'd take a picture with certain objects and be giddy with euphoria... or laugh, because it's something secret/discreet, yet fun and very much me.

"Hahaha," I'd think deviously whenever I'm leaning on a [censored] to take a selfie, "nobody knows I'm actually X!"

(Goes without saying: If you have any guesses on my identity, please keep them to yourselves. Thank you!)

Aromantic/genderqueer icons for a Frank Sinatra fact-alterhuman, particularly with pictures from Young at Heart (1954).

...is awful.

Disclaimer: awful to me& personally. I don't judge any of you& who like bein' treated like a celebrity. Moving on.

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Warning: Harassment, abuse mention, transphobia

Notes: I use "queer" as a positive self-identification label. Please blacklist the word if it triggers or upsets you.

And thank you(&) for all your support on my other posts! This is the first time I'll type the way I normally do.

If you have any guesses on my identity, please kindly keep it to yourself/ves.

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Mod Silhouette: I don't like people coming to me, tellin' me they "like my work" and all that type of jazz. Especially when they tell me to do [thing I was known for]. It's uncomfortable - not least because they're not a fan of me& (who's a bunch of [redacted]s from other universes). If anything, they'd most likely be a fan of the [redacted] in this meatspace... or in their own universe.

Another problem is that - people who treat me like a celebrity often forget I'm "only" a person.