#evolving beliefs

If we imagine time to be the 4th dimension, then our 4th dimensional self is like a line compared to the three dimensional dot self.

Only it’s not a line in the 3D sense… it’s affected by quantum entanglement and warps in space time and all kinds of things which the 3D mind has a hard time putting words onto.

Similar to how quantum mechanics has taught us that light is expressed simultaneously as a particle and a wave… the imagery is apt to describe the self from the 4th dimensional point of view.

(4D light is almost… infinite… more a cloth or a medium than a wave but trying to grasp 4D light is an aetheric time travel adventure in it’s own right)

I would argue that in order to be able to understand our 4D selves, we have to go beyond constructs of self and perceive 5th dimensionally.

I understand the 5th dimension to be the perspective that takes all the other particle/line/wave people/consciousnesses into account.

Interconnectedness is the nature of the 5th dimension, as time and movement is the 4th, and physical proportion are the first three.

The 4D self is a projection of the 3D self along the infinitely malleable time axis, but because of something similar to quantum entanglement, the moments at which we interact with others are the moments when our wave stabilises, and can be “measured” so to speak… all our potential interactions create multi-layered realities or multi-verses on the 5th (and maybe 6th? I guess 3D numbers don’t really apply) dimension…

Following this assumption, the aether can be classified not as a “place”, but as a dimension in which consciousness of the interconnectedness of all things becomes possible.

Within these aetheric dimensions, all options – past, present, and future – are mapped out and interchangeable (perhaps not personally so… or that is to say, the amount of energy it would take for a 3D perspective to move along the 5D axis is so much that it can be regarded as implausible at the very least… but there are moments at which we align with our 4D or even 5D selves, and inexplicable things become a bit less implausible…)

I even believe that through the aetheric dimensions we have connections to all the multi-verse – be it single celled, mineral, or completely alien to us in nature. The reason most people have a hard time accessing these aspects of the aether is because any experience our 5D selves have will eventually be filtered through the personal mind, which is notoriously effective at ignoring what it cannot explain based on frameworks of the past.

The task of the individual mind is to filter.

While submerged in the aetheric dimensions, we do not necessarily “exist” in any one moment of space-time. Or rather, we exist in so many, simultaneously that it would require vast amounts of energy to move all of those points at once (and yet independently).

The self-mind is what allows us to identify with a moment, draw energy from that present, and act in that time-space.

In 5D we are part of the same cloth as our god-forms, and the supernovae in which our elements were formed are distanced from us only by space-time.

5th dimensional perspective melts away feelings of victomhood, prejudice, nationalism, narcissism, consumerism… even fear of death. From the 5D perspective it is understood that the story is not about “me”, but rather “us” – an infinite “we” of heroes long dead and tricksters not yet born. Having glimpsed the aetheric dimensions is to understand that there are greater powers and possibilities than those presented by the self-mind.

We do not exist in isolation, and every act we take has consequences for others.

L came to me to ask be to put on a cartoon. As I went to turn on the computer, they were distracted by the toys still strewn on the floor, I thought to myself "ok, cool, maybe L will forget about the cartoon"

A good while later, as I pass by the room, they yell out "cartoon", and as I say "ok" he replies "I'm not going to forget"

As I go to turn on the computer, I wonder to myself if I spoke out loud earlier, and they call from the other room "I'm not going to forget anything!"

The brain appears to be the gathering point for electrical currents which flow through and around our bodies. Just as a physical injury to the brain can cause a loss of sight without damaging the eyes, so too can psychological damage cause a lack of perception throughout the senses.

In my opinion, there is no greater psychological damage than repression.

When we are born, we rely almost entirely on what is commonly called extra sensory perception.

The physical senses are underdeveloped, and understandably so: the physical senses are quite useless inside the womb. But empathy is not! The sharing of emotional information is essential to understanding the world inside mama.

Once we pass through the portal of manifestation, the physical senses develop in earnest, but our "first sense" doesn't fade on it's own. Most people in this day and age are born into families which in no way acknowledge the human capacity to percieve the world beyond their five physical senses.

Just as we have parts of our brain dedicated to the physical senses, so too, I am sure do we have parts of us specified in recieving and interpreting our "sixth" (or seventh or eighth...) sense.

Here is where the power of belief comes into play.

When we are told, especially within the first (about) six years of our life, that we must have "heard it on the tv somewhere" or "must be making it up", this type of affirmation can make us not only loose confidance in our perceptions, but can cause us to create synaptic connections between things that were not originally liked.

Take, for example, the common occurance that your mother doesn't believe you when you say you have channeled information about the neighbor, even if it turns out to be a correct reflection of his thoughts/actions. "You must have overheard him taking through the walls". At an impressionable age and coming from an authoritive source, this kind of disbelief can be devastating. Our neural net begins to change, creating a bridge which, with time, will relate all channeled information to another source than the one it actually came from.

I believe that this is why some people are clairaudient, while others are clairsentient (and so on). It is possible to confuse extra sensory perceptions as having originated from any of the physical senses, and if we were told enough times that we are just "making it up", we are likely to associate our channeled information as something our mind has pulled out of imaginationland (which can make it very difficult to distinguish between fear and intuition, for example).

There are a great number of exercises we can do to reconnect with our extra sensory perceptions, and with time and inspiration I hope to include quite a few of them on this blog!

The first time I made dark moon water, I thought the sun would ruin it!, so I got it inside before the sun came up

After living more with the sun and moon, the stereotypes I have associated with them have changed.

When we look into the sky on the night of the dark moon, we cannot see the moon because it isn't there!, not just because it's illuminated face points away from us.

The dark moon rises at the same time as the sun! Remember that the new moon sets before sunset, because it's out after sunrise.

I have come to see the moon as the mirror of the sun. If the moon gets its brilliance from the sun, how can the sun's rays negate the moon's power?

The dark moon is when most brightly the moon shines in the sun's "face".

I realize that I was too dualistic in my previous beliefs! I was attracted to the power of the dark because it is taboo in our society, and my path, I do not regret it. 

I would even recommend anyone who believes in the "light" and "pure goodness" to take a walk on the dark side (and take a good look in the mirror)

Even if we take the idea of the dark side of the moon, this creates many dualistic misconceptions! It is true that the same face of the moon always points away from the earth, but from the sun's point of view, the moon is always twinkling back at it (except during lunar eclipse when the earth gets in the way, and this only happens during full moon!

If the moon represents the subconscious, it only makes sense that it is connected to the sun, which is representative of the ego (the projected self)

The first step towards loving myself was to abandon the expectations that were set on me as a child. 

Perfectionism had to go as well.

Writing helped me a lot to identify my self-destructive thought patterns.

I had to realise that control is an illusion, and that giving in to the flow of life is a magickal thing.

Without self love, I was constantly saying “yes” to things which burdened me, or saying “no” to things I wanted but was afraid to work for.

I had to ditch some toxic relationships, and learn to make friends who recognised my unique qualities, and didn’t want to change me.

Narcissism was a major stumbling block in my evolution; an overcompensation for low self-esteem.

I had to learn to listen.

Learning to be comfortable being alone was also a huge step towards my self-acceptance.

I had to make self care a priority.

Activity became essential!

I had to get rid of things, not just add things that were missing.

The most important step for me has been to learn to let my freak flag fly. 

I know this is going to be controversial, but I feel like i’ve never seen my opinion expressed in the public vaccine debate.

I should start by explaining that I love life, I worship the sun and perform rituals of fertility for our crops. I pray to give people in shit situations the will and strength to fight and win. But I am not afraid of death. I will fight against it if I feel it comes too soon, but I honestly hope that my last thought will be one of acceptance.

I also believe vaccines make us weaker as a collective. Group immunity is not only possible through vaccines. I would even argue that naturally aquired group immunity is more effective than that which is aquired through vaccines. No one today whose ancestors survived the beubonic plague is at risk of being infected, because they have real, genetic immunity. The fear about vaccines is that if we stop taking them, the diseases will come back, because our immune systems have not really adapted to them. But real immunity we can pass on to our children. (This is obviously not a sure thing, there is more than one person whose immune system affects a child, primarily the mother, and an inconcievable amount of external variables which go into the formation of a child and their immune system).

I also believe “poor” people the world over are being poisoned, in part through vaccines, in part through poisonous additives to cheap food, and in part through the apathy of their “brothers and sisters”. In the end, this is not something I can prove, and I don’t intend to try here, but it is a strong belief of mine that not everyone has access to the same level of healthcare, and “random” contaminations and side-effects don’t seem so hard to fake. People the world over are suffering from the medication they are given, while those with enough money have other options. There are currently more children with paralysis caused by free polio vaccines (the oral, partially active kind, too dangerous to be administered in Europe and North America), donated by one of the richest people in the world, than there are people with polio.

If polio is taken to be a real disease, the human body must be capable of fighting it, without outside intervention. Would this mean pain and suffering for many? Yes (especially if we maintain rigid morals about euthanasia). Given the lack of optimal nutrition and lifestyle, the majority of people are not living their strongest selves, which means a drastic change in lifestyle must accompany a decision to give faith back to our bodies (this must also include a removal of “foreign aid”, which in most cases is nothing more than an excuse to bring troops, contractors, and political interests from post-colonialist parties to parts of the world they have no business pretending to be the rulers of. I believe most war, famine, and predesposition to disease in so called “developing” parts of the world are the direct result of conscious efforts to keep them from developing, in order to take advantage of the lack of equality and the desesperation of billions). On the other hand, there are people the world over who are incapable of letting even a headache pass it’s natural course, so we must also learn what it feels like to be strong in the face of pain.

Life is worthless if it’s the only thing we’ve got.

Life is worthless without the very things that make life worth living: the feel of the breeze through your hair, the sun on your face, the company of loved ones, dreams to aspire to, games to play, new things to discover, growth and challenge…

Yes, illness generally feels shitty. Yes, natural instincts would have us fight against our death, and that of those we care for.

As long as we can fight for our health, our lives, and our well-being, there is no reason not to (except fear, or more specifically, fear of pain).

But anyone of us could loose this fight. We all do, eventually. Degeneration and illness overwhelm even the most powerful of people; even an immortal would succumb to the death of the star it’s life revolves around… But knowledge of entrophy is not a reason to stop creating. If anything, it should be a “call to arms” as we realize the human potential for conscious creation.