A late night vision and stream-of-consciousness:
A wolf - predominantly grey, but gradient into whites below and blacks above, speckles of silver and gold flecked throughout- pads into your space. It is a dark circle; a den of your own making within a hollow of evergreen trees, beneath the twinkle of the dark, endless expanse of the cosmos above. The lush greens flicker to life in the light of a fire, the remainder a comforting black in the dark. The expanse above is a medley of indigo, pink, white, teal, butter yellow, purple, and vibrant blue.
Warm browns surround you, and the comfort of a tent is just out of view (though you suspect for some reason that it's that almost cartoony red artists often favor). The soil is damp, but firm, and a ring of smooth stones - three deep - surrounds the fire before you. There is a mug in your hands, your stomach is full, the taste of a favored comfort food on your tongue. Music — natural and man-made both — drifts along the soft breeze, a reminder of the life and joy around you.
You look to your hands and observe the scars there. Some are freshly healed, others from long ago and faded. Your skin is softened, now, but evidence of callouses remain. Wrinkles form at your eyes when you smile down, and serenity fills your heart where fear once reigned supreme.
You look to the wolf as it lumbers over to your side and looks up into your eyes. You reach a hand forward and caress its face. The fur is coarse and rough at the edges, but dense and soft beneath, and the wolf leans into your touch more firmly than expected. You lean forward to kiss its brow, and the wolf's tail gently wags behind it. When you lean back, moisture pools in the wolf's eyes and your smile softens. You squeeze its cheek, then let your hand slowly fall to your lap. The wolf shakes slightly and rotates to curl up to your side and just at your feet.
The night is still and crickets chirp among the grasses beyond. Specks of white petals float and swirl in a barrier around you before drifting off past your gaze. Little lights blink languidly around you, and as the weight of a blanket crests your shoulders, you find your surroundings drifting away until you sit alone in a sea of shadows and stars. The wolf raises its head to look beyond what you can see, then lifts itself on its forelegs, then its haunches. It pauses, giving a last sweep of the space, then turns to you and steps within, vanishing as it makes contact with your form. You sit in silence, darkness, and stardust, and close your eyes as you crane your face to the heavens above.
The peace of complete connection and love washes over and through you, and your soul feels both freer and more grounded than ever before. You are safe with yourself - your inner child forever protected by and protecting you, wild and free deep inside you, and running through every sensory nerve at once.
Your questions die off, your uncertainty quiets, and a feeling of home washes over you. You breathe in deep, set down your mug, brace, stand, and then step into the darkness beyond - never alone.
The Eight of Swords can fall away, and The Moon may be Reversed. Death begets life and The Fool beckons you forward. The Page of Wands, Ace of Coins/Pentacles, and The Empress will be your companions moving forward.
The Crossroads, The Clover, The Dog -> The Star, The Child, The Ship -> The Letter, The Key, The Heart -> The Counterpart (Man/Woman/etc), The Ring, The Fish
Meadows, running water, butterflies, old logs, thick blankets, smooth stones, and large dogs may bring you peace at this time. Good food will bolster your energy, and mindful rest will help you root in your soul. Your task now is not to rush or fall back, but to rest, listen, and then act when the time is right. Show yourself love and warmth, and revel in that feeling. Find love for yourself in the way you love others, and in that which you have always needed to give yourself. You are secure and safe, now - you don't need another's protection to find your footing, but there is no wrong in asking for - or demanding - help.
Angelite, Celestite, Moonstone, Amethyst, and Rose Quartz may help guide your way moving forward. Look to deities of the Harvest, the Hunt, the Hearth, and the Heart for messages and purpose.
2121 & 474 may be significant in your life at this time. Pastel blues, clear pools, and rich baths may support you in clarity at this time.
The mockingbird looks over you while the osprey flies ahead - trust in these messengers and know your future is on their wings.
Spherical objects, loose clothes, and plush fabrics provide grounding and stability in the material, while the Earth provides grounding in the metaphysical. The dark of night may help you to feel more secure in your bodily experience.
Spirit holds that you are whole and valuable as you are, on your own. You are meant for far more than the little you ask for, and the less you've settled for in the past. Divine love asks you to put faith in yourself and in the world around you, as with faith and courage there are great rewards that await. All that is meant for you will come to you in due time, but first you must believe and start forward again. "Meet me along the way."
Campfire videos, camping soundtracks, coming of age films, journals, sketchbooks, paints, and pens may elevate your inner experience at this time.
The choice to move forward is there for you to take when you're ready. It will be there again if you walk away, though it may look different. What matters now is presence and the shedding of shame for what cannot be changed, or what you are not yet ready to change. There is time. Follow your feet when you're ready, and change your stars.
Film recommendations: Studio Ghibli's "Whisper of the Heart" and "The Cat Returns", "A Knight's Tale" starring Heath Ledger, and "Serendipity" with John Cusack.
Honeysuckle, vanilla, lemon, and/or lavender may bring you calm and surrender.
Indulge in small comforts at this time, without shame or hesitation.
Take heart in knowing you are held and supported in all that you do, and you are enough as you were, are, and will be. The Universe is ready; are you?
Much Love and Blessed Be.