#evening posts

I'm likely going to have my posts for the Witch Hat anime during evenings on the day the episodes air from now on. It works well that way for me.

Starting with some of my fave screenshots, and the introduction of the buddy of the brush!

Why can`t I be the person I want to be? Daring but honest and loyal and funny and confident.... Instead I am constantly hiding...

But enough of that, I don`t want to repeat myself... I kind of want to do this writing every evening.. Just telling the internet what I think, so nobody has to listen to me (probably as annoying if I post every evening here as telling real people about my problems, but it is A LOT easier on here).

Today I really did good... I am even low-key proud of myself.. I survived school and made marzipan pralines. Getting the Christmas vibes there :`D I still feel bad for some reason.. Maybe because I started worrying about everything again, but in the same time, I fantasized about irrelevant stuff at the same time.. (I really hope nobody is ever reading this...If you do, I am truly sorry for the absence of any structure) 

I sometimes feel like I am trapped in a rain cloud. Everything around me is dull and muffled and it is constantly dark and uncomfortable... I then feel like I am not a proper part of the world around me, but far, far away and only understand fragments of it... Whenever I feel like that, I try not to give in to that, but it is really hard not to let myself dissociate into that world...

“I just want to be somebody to someone!” ~BANNERS, Someone to you

Even though I should be happy about having amazing friends, instead I am craving for something more, I really want a relationship right now. I never had one, maybe because I have trouble trusting people, or I am simply very unlikable... I guess I jut don`t want t be alone (a cat would do too, though). It annoys the crap out of me to hear people say: “You just haven`t found the right one yet!” I noticed that too, thanks... But I want someone special around me, somebody who makes me feel special, who loves me with all his or her heart... (Yes, I need a lot of affection.. :( but what can I do, huh?)

Thank you for Reading/ listening to my weird thoughts, thanks to Tumblr for always correcting my spelling mistakes, although it does not know its own name (stupid lil`u <3)

So, about an hour and a half ago, my phone lit up with a BBC news alert saying that the two main bridges that cross the Bosporous in Istanbul have been blocked and that fighter jets were circling low over the capital city of Ankara in Turkey. There was almost immediate speculation that a coup was underway and that the military was actively seeking to take control of the government. The main national broadcast center has gone black and all social media has been blocked. The main international airport, Ataturk International, has been closed and flights are being diverted elsewhere. 

i'm sooooo tired. i don't even know why.

weird..

anyway, i'm finally watching Reply 1997. and omg, i already love it. :3

i had a little mind fuck at the beginning but now it's all fine. xD

yeah.