pictures from thanksgiving break // currently playing: The Christmas Song - Vince Guaraldi Trio
as of writing this, i have less than a week left in my second to last semester of college. these days i feel so nostalgic whenever i walk around campus; it's like those scenes in movies where a character is walking through an area and it flashes back to the character walking through the same places years before. it's a weird spot to be in: on one hand, i can't wait to be done with school and get to have some time where i'm not constantly plagued by assignments, on the other, the past 4 years are now just memories that i will never get to experience quite the same way again, the thought of which is saddening.
moving on from my emotional ramble, the introduction and methods for my thesis are due in less than a week, and i only have about a third of the required pages written... writing is so difficult for me, so i tend to put it off. ever since i was about 16, i have been unable to write "drafts." every sentence must be a perfect, polished sentence. of course, this is an unrealistic expectation that severely slows me down and makes things 100x more stressful, but as someone who got her validation almost entirely through academic achievement for most of her life, i can't seem to break away from it and allow myself to do "bad" writing. it also doesn't help that i am constantly exhausted.... but it's okay, i can push through. i have already made a lot of progress in breaking old, unhealthy habits from the times when i was defined by my grades, so i will break this one too.
anyways, enough about me. i hope all of you are having a good week, and that your semesters are wrapping up well !!
