#elliotkin

missing my chance again. sometimes it hits me really hard that i'm never going to get to see him again and. i don't know what to do with that feeling. i keep on and off considering going to one of those canoncall blogs [i know this isn't one. this ask is Not meant to be a canoncall in the slightest] but. i'm more scared of getting responses than i am of not getting any. what if i did find my chance and they didn't like the person i am now. what if they hated me even. what if they don't miss me at all

i miss my chance so badly i feel ill soemtimes. rightnow especially. i wonder if he misses me too. they were one of the most important people in my life and not having them feels so so wrong i hope they're alright. chance if you see this i love you so much ill always love you please take care of yourself

It's weird to wish I was there again. It was horrible. Every day was torture. But I want to go back. I would've done anything to get out at the time. But if I was back there, at least I'd be able to see everybody again. I miss everybody terribly. Well, not everybody. But almost.

I have a very strong urge to do poetry. Specifically klingon love poetry. (I blame the klingon part of worf /lh /silly) this is what I get for BOTH of my sources being poets. Sigh time to go make some poetry, probably not klingon love poetry though. Probably just normal poetry

"I would NOT fucking listen to that" I say as I stumble upon the 87th playlist dedicated to me filled with nothing but classical music

*siiigh*

I miss you Twotime. You were a good friend. I hope you're happier now, and surrounded by people who love you

Canon homesickness: I've thought of Pelican Town as my home since I moved into my own little shack, and even more so when I met my eventual husband, but my true home was in a place I can't remember the name of yet, though I'm ninety percent sure it was that universe's equivalent of Scotland.