#twotimekin

I’m so sorry. I’m still sorry. I still miss him.

-Two Time

HOWEVER.

Most of my kins were not.

90% (and by that I mean like 5 of my known ones) of them, in fact, were enamored withhhhh,, you guessed it!

Men!

Also most of them are men or neither which is lovely for an afab dysphoric gay little fucker with no money who wishes they could actually look like themself but I digress

So yeah it’s awkward when I, a lesbian, who pointedly doesn’t like men (romantically, I’m not a radfem/misandrist I swear), sees a masc character and goes “oh yeah I was like. Hella in love with that guy.”

So. Uh. Yeah. Anyway yall should go check out the new calling all villains trailer. Go watch my beloved tin can travesty go. He made a memorial for me and everything >u< even though im not dead but like

-several gays in a trenchcoat

Also, why does everyone suddenly seem to care about my agab because of this. "Amab two time is canon!!" "I can save afab two time!!" Can you all shut the actual FUCK up and quit trying to shove nonbinary people into boxes. I already have to deal with that enough due to being nonbinary currently, can my kins at least be exempt from it? No? I hate this fandom.

— Two Time, Forsaken. #🪽⭐

As two time, i dealt with chronic pain every now and again, mainly in my wings and legs. I was also autistic and had some kind of psychosis thing (mainly religious psychosis, this is also what caused the Stabbing), which also came with an unhealthy amount of paranoia.

As 1x1x1x1, i had NPD and also dealt with chronic pain in my wings. I was also missing a pair of wings (was created with 2 pairs) because of Telamon ripping them off. I was also missing two of my horns because of him. I also couldn't see out of my right eye because of an accident that happened when i was young. I believe i also had some kind of condition that caused my feathers to grow in improperly? I think it might've also been related to the chronic pain somehow but i don't really remember.

I have more kintypes but i've been mostly thinking about these two recently so they're the only ones i'm talking about here.

— Two Time and 1x1x1x1, both from forsaken. #🪽⭐

anyways. i haven't played my source in fucking forever but azure was just added to the game and of course i have to go See him because that's my partner. and. Oh my fucking god they're so pretty. Like. oh my god. HE'S SO FINE,,,

and like i already Knew he was pretty. like this is coming from the same creature who will pause and stare at anyone who's avatar is a cosplay of him for a solid 5 seconds minimum solely because i am so entranced by how pretty he is. but something about seeing them in game is hitting me different and turning me like 20 times more gay for them.

AND HIS FUCKING VOICE IS SO PRETTY TOO LIKE !!! OH MY GOD. I cannot overstate this he is so hot. The religious psychosis CANNOT have made me fumble this im going to SCREAM. I NEED HIM SO FUCKING BAD!!! azure PLEASEEEE take me back i'll be better this time i'll do anything PLEASE

— Two Time, from Forsaken

I never mentioned his sacrifice to the survivors. Not of my own will. I always carefully avoided it. When asked if I regretted anything I had done for the spawn, I physically couldn’t make myself say I didn’t regret his death - so I just said Not Most Of It. The only reason the other survivors found out at all was because the specter took over my body and forced me to admit it. I was inconsolable.

I refused to stab azure or even get close to them when they became a killer, I was so adamant about it that it took the specter taking over my body and forcing me to actually ‘participate’ for me to do anything other than hide in the corner of the map those rounds. (I was sobbing and loudly apologizing the entire time it controlled me. Usually I would say ‘I repent’, but I never said that to him. I just wailed and said ‘I’m sorry’.)

I felt horrible for regretting it. It was against everything I was raised to believe. That’s why I kept it secret for so long. Why I never talked about it. I remember the night before the sacrifice I was inconsolable in his arms because I knew what would happen. But I did regret it. And I was right to. I hate every single bastard who forced me into that position. Fuck the spawn.

in essence: I Would Not Fucking Do That Shit (aimed at a headcanon I saw that won’t stop bugging me)

— two time, forsaken

- an unidentified two time

May tomorrow be a better day...

-Two Time, Forsaken, #sunstruck