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Welcome to the first Dark Academian E-Journal! For submissions, inquiries, or the like, please write us here or visit our website at www.thepiningpoet.com.

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Aeternum: The Journal of Contemporary Gothic Studies, Volume 6, Issue 1, edited by Ashleigh Prosser, Gwyneth Peaty, and Lorna Piatti-Farnell, June 2019. Info and free download: aeternumjournal.com.

Aeternum: The Journal of Contemporary Gothic Studies is an open-access biannual on-line journal. It offers peer-reviewed academic articles. The purpose of the Journal is to provide an emphasis on contemporary Gothic scholarship, bringing together innovative perspectives from different areas of study.

I met this guy the first week i worked at Times Supermarket, my first job in Maui. He was very curious already, i can tell, since he asked where i came from, and about my name, etc. That was one reason why i remembered him from day one. 

2019 came and we still spoke to each other, like normal interactions of regular people. It was a friendly gesture i guess, especially since i am a cashier, and he was a frequent customer of the store (plus he’s a local). I didn’t know then that we would actually be friends, i realized that when i met his brother, his nieces and nephew. I liked that - it was a way of branching out and making connections.

The beginning of April, probably around 10:30 in the morning, i saw his brother working, i said “hi” as a form of courtesy, he waved back at me and came to my register. He then asked some stuff, and eventually became the “fairy god brother” who’d build a bridge between me and M. From the 5th of April onwards, we have been communicating. Poor him had to go the process of getting to know an anti-social, friendly but very shy person. I told myself i should take chances too. And it’s not like meeting new people is a bad thing either. And so we have been hanging out, eating carbs and watching movies. We’d walk around, sharing stories and talking about random topics.. not thinking about anything else but the “now”. I think that is why i liked going out with him too.. he is very open to my inconsistency and my shyness. He doesn’t feel (or so he says) awkward that i do not talk too much. 

It is risky for me and pretty hard to open up, due to my past experiences. It is very hard. I promised myself to focus on work, and in giving my family - my mom especially, the comfort she deserves. I do not want to break that promise. I can see i have progress with my life too. I have found the full-time accounting job i have been waiting and wanting for -- Eden Joi S. Hora, Staff Accountant at Destination Residences Hawaii, under the Hyatt Corporation. 

Next to my agenda is learning to drive and park more confidently, and getting that full-driver’s license. THEN i buy a car. 

What has been pushing me do all these things? Myself. I want to be happy, i want to give my mom happiness and stability. I want to give myself comfort and inner peace. I deserve these too. And maybe it is M who has been inspiring me also.. he’s nothing but a rainbow in my dark days, that green flash i didn’t expect to see.. he’s that sweetness and addictive “thing” like ice cream and shaved ice. He has been a great companion and sweetheart. There’s still much to know about him and i am letting him become a part of my days and life. It might take a while before a fully let him invade my toxic life though, but i am ready for the challenge. I am not afraid for the struggle anymore.

hi there! i’ve got two questions for you:

1) are you a friend of mine? (you as in the person reading this)

2) do you have a dreamwidth account OR are you willing to create one for the sake of being granted access to a sliver of my inner thoughts and personal life?

if you answered YES to both questions, please go ahead and add me on DW. once i confirm your identity as someone I know and trust, i will add you back.

Solis Anima 

Entry: 01, Date ?/?/?, Time: 2:47am He whom wields the sun's fury, an incomprehensible ifrit pit ...dwelling in his very soul. A cursed flame holds him hostage, to now this new life as Hell's lapdog. A chain of undying dread hangs overhead, as though there were rain pouring down, though as one would expect it to turn to smoke, drift away, this fire cannot, and will not be put out, not even by his own will. Buried within the furious fire that engulfs his heart is a sea of regret, of pain... of question, a question that perhaps causes him to wonder, exactly; his purpose in life. The whispering cold shows but a calm to the fire, an even larger question; Should he lay down and accept death?

Upon a dangerous field he is alone, behind him stands a vast, emptiness. The other; a sea of lava. He travels through the ocean, to which his body enjoys. A satisfacation that causes illness, everything can be burned. As the world beyond him alights with destruction, he is untouched. A boy who bears a soul of ifrit in which within him wishes to scatter a wave of hatred.

To which I wonder; Is your heart immune to your disastrous fumes? There are not words to describe what must be felt beneath your human exterior, not the letters to write, nor the comprehension in existence. I continue to ponder over your life, I feel envy. For you have not only been separated beyond your life at birth, but you have too been gutted of your human life. A mentality exists but your soul was caged, upon its release you now bear with you an even larger burden that even I could not imagine. I apologize, for I will never pity you, Edward. Indeed your existence can be described as depressing, insane, or perhaps even a mistake, but I am not upset with where you and I stand at this moment in time, to a hundred years from now, to our graves. I feel what can only be described as happiness.. that you continue to live, each day and on.

'One may smile, and smile, and be a villain. ' — William Shakespeare, "Hamlet"

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