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He left at 7pm yesterday. I stayed up waiting for him, on the sofa and he never came back. Or if I did briefly fall asleep, he didn't wake me up coming in, I searched the house for any sight of him, and he’s not here. There’s no note, I can't check the tracker because my phone’s been wrecked by Big Salmon.

I’m trying not to get upset, or too anxious, but it’s hard. He’s at the mansion still. He could’ve freaked out, had a panic attack looking back at what we did. Big Salmon could’ve caught him. But more than that I’m scared that he’s gone too far, after leaving Mumbo behind before, he’s been an idiot and pushed too hard and now they’ve caught him, and are hurting him because of it, or his legs ran out of charge again, or an injury from before opened and stopped him doing anything. I don't know.

I’m probably going to look back at this diary entry and laugh at how silly all my fears were, but right now I’m fucking terrified for Scar. He’s been caught before, and it’s never ended well.

I wonder if the Jingler would be able to help him more than I could.

10:15am

I’ve had breakfast, had a shower, and calmed down a little from earlier, but I’m only getting more scared about Scar. He’s definitely not home. I’ve checked Symnet, and there’s nothing. I’ve been watching the news for mentions of HotGuy. Emailed Lizzie about checking Hub and she hasn't gotten back to me. (Lizzie has a fake Hub account for reading gossip, she isn't a criminal. I know this because I baked the cake of Joel’s decapitated head that she posed with for her profile picture). Bought a new phone, but it’ll take a couple days to arrive. I have a burner phone from ConVex days that we only used once, and I know Joe’s number, in case I need him over.

I did more research on the fungus from Codfather's – yes, it is a fungus. It’s known as sculk, there’s been a couple papers on it, the most interesting by a ‘Shelby Shrub’. I got a screenshot of the ‘scientifically approved’ part of the article here (the whole thing is too long) but the rest is even more interesting. She's suggesting using specialized sculk cells as a way of completely replacing missing or broken limbs. I’ve printed a copy of it for my growing file of pictures, diagrams, etc. I think I’m going to continue researching based on that now.

Never mind, Lizzie just replied.

10:46

Had a panic attack. Called Joe over. They’ve taken HotGuy prisoner. Jevin left pictures in the comments of some of the injuries they've left him with, and audio of them torturing him for information about me. He said nothing. He said absolutely nothing as they were

Holy fucking shit what the fuck have they done. I wish I hadn't called joe I want revenge. I want to get so high on vex magic that all I feel is rage and tear Jellyfish and Barracuda to shreds with my bare hands. I want to go to the mansion now and make them pay for even considering what they did. I want to rescue Scar and Mumbo and keep them here where no one can ever hurt them ever again and burn the mansion to the fucking ground with everyone in Big Salmon inside.

This is what they said:

Jellyfish:

WE GOT HOTGUY

The pussy came for Mumbo yesterday, we found him

 trapped under a fucking net trap, abandoned and utterly pitiful and easily dragged him to the depths of our home.

Sunday morning. 6am. We’re tearing Mumbo limb from limb live here on Hub, and starting the hunt for HotGuy’s true identity and who his best friends are to properly break them and punish them too.

#KillingAngelfish #HotGuy #MumboJCutler #CatchingAngelfish #WTFHotGuy 

#Imprisonment #Murder #fucktheHCPD #BigSalmon

UPDATE: ‘oh just remove his mask’ ‘take off his mask’ ‘that’s not hotguy’ FUCK YOU GUYS THAT’S NOT HOW THIS WORKS

WE’RE NOT REMOVING HOTGUY'S MASK BECAUSE THAT MEANS WE CAN'T GET HIM TO TELL US HIMSELF WHO HIS FRIENDS ARE. I WANT HIM DROWNING IN GUILT THAT HE GAVE UP HIS FRIENDS FOR HIS OWN LIFE, I WANT HIM SCREAMING AS WE CUT HIS FACE OFF TRYING TO GET OFF THE MASK OUR WAY.

THERE IS A FUCKING GENTLEMAN’S RULE THAT WE DON’TJUST DEMASK PEOPLE THAR’S NOT FUCKING EARNED YOU PRICKS.

WHY WOULD WE FUCKING RUSH THE BEsT BIT YOU IMPATIENT ASSHOLSE???

10:45am

Joe’s here, but I can't tell him anything. I can't tell him anything at all, not why Scar’s gone, not what’s happening, even though I would trust him with HotGuy, and ConVex, but I can’t. Not without Scar’s consent, it’s his secret. 

14:28pm

Joe’s still here to comfort me. I’ve avoided all his questions asking where Scar went. The news about HotGuy has to get out soon.

I had lunch and then vomited up everything. Back on the sofa crying now.

16:57pm

Still on sofa. Watched something about telescopes with Joe. It mentioned convex lenses and I almost had another panic attack. Joe said he’d be happy to stay the night. He can't be here when Scar comes back as HotGuy. So I’ve lied that I'm feeling better and that Scar will be back soon and he’s left. And now I'm alone again and feeling worse than ever.

7pm

It’s been 24 hours since Scar left. HotGuy’s still caught. No one’s shared anything with Symnet. But #WTFHotGuy is trending again. Everyone’s worried about Mumbo’s execution tomorrow. Sorry, I mean, HotGuy’s reaction to Mumbo’s execution. They’re wondering whether he’ll do something, or if he actually wanted Mumbo to be caught.

The police shared a missing poster for Scar. Jimmy’s pestering me about it. Skizz asked questions over the phone, I tried to tell him I knew where Scar was, but he saw through my lies.

Now there’s some ‘Cuteguy’ claiming he’ll do something if HotGuy doesn't appear soon.

I didn't have dinner. I’m too worried to feel hungry 

10:15pm

Still on sofa. Threw up again from anxiety about Scar. I feel really dizzy and tense. I want Joe back here with me, but I still can’t have him here when Scar comes back as HotGuy. He can’t know. Scar would freak out if he knew I’d told someone.

Sunday June 25th

2am haven't slept. Feel awful. Everything hurts. I need Scar. All I can think about is him, trapped, hurt, what they could be doing to him. All I know is that Mumbo’s still alive, because they said they were going to kill him this morning.

 Lizzie emailed again with another message before the upcoming broadcast. They’ve confirmed they’re in the Woodland Mansion. Some part of me wants to reply as Jingler. The rest of me can't possibly leave this sofa

2:15am

Skizz called again. He’s asking about Scar again. He mentioned Scar being Jangler, if he said anything about the mansion, repeated about Big Salmon being there. I gave him as much as I know, I told him I was Jingler. He said he’s already guessed, but would never tell anyone. I think the police are going to the mansion to stop Big Salmon.

5:15am

I fell asleep and had a nightmare. Don't want to think about it. Recorded it in my nightmare journal only. Lizzie messaged again. She’s got a link for the execution. I’ve got it open. Scar will be on it. I can use it to help him. I think I’m gonna use the Vex from afar. I can't go there myself, I just can't. It’s too late, we promised not to use Vex magic unless it’s an absolute emergency and we both agree. I just have to wait. It’s all I can do for Scar I wish I could do more. I hope he’s ok. They haven't said anything about the police coming around, Skizz hasn't called again.