#effexor

I guess I would have been...20 when I got on it

other meds I tried that were dumb:

seroquel: (!!!) 8 months or so. my first therapist DX'd me Bipolar II, this was later "a misdiagnosis", lmao (thank fucking god they "allowed" it to be a "misdiagnosis" and didn't Noncompliant-ize me)

this RX was even more evil than Effexor—any dose would be lights out upon taking, and groggy most of the time I was awake—but my experience with it was lucky, I was able to get off of it and did not have lasting side-effects to my knowledge. I think I was on this for 8 months before I got off

wellbutrin: almost no perceptible effect at all. just do real stimulants. go in on coke if you're offered

abilify: brief, filled maybe twice because it costs a million dollars

lamictal: I barely remember but I think this had an annoying side-effect and getting on it was also annoying in some way and then I got off it

Effexor was the one that I got on and stayed stuck on in order to not have Effexor withdrawals

I used to be on 225mg/day at highest, but some years ago (5?) I tapered down to 150mg/day, which thankfully went okay and did not feel like dying the way full withdrawals do

still, I am still on it. I have had many days of desperately trying to get prescriber and pharmacy to fill the stupid thing, fortunately usually just one withdrawal day at a time

if there is ever a supply chain issue, I will be fucked

I have figured out I am a trans woman and changed my actual circumstances

I am no longer beholden to my parents

I no longer believe in psychiatry

I can very slowly, carefully, very slowly taper down further, until one day my daily dose is 0mg/day

I can do it

descided on my meds as happy little guys.

or at least should