#dysfunction

I remember the early phases of my healing journey. First, it was constant sadness. As I went deeper, the anger surfaced. "What's wrong with me?" I asked myself. I very much though that I was doing something wrong. The thought crossed my mind that I was doing it incorrectly. Healing was supposed to help me not be sad or angry because I was supposed to be able to figure out the source of it all, process it, then move forward. It's not that easy, though.

Trust the anger. It's telling you the ways in which you were done wrong. This doesn't always mean that this wrongdoing came from the outside. Sometimes, we can do wrong by our own selves. Not taking care of ourselves properly. Not completing the tasks we know we need to complete.

Our symptoms aren't so bad so I don't think we'd qualify for a diagnosis either way, but it does make me curious about other people with DID and if it's possible to have a CDD from little T traumas.

Hi anon

This is a great question, and the answer might surprise you

Emotional neglect is the biggest predictor of a CDD, and that neglect can come from many places-- schools, family, peers

Disorganized attachments in childhood play a central role in the development of CDDs, and even well-meaning, well-intentioned parents can form a DA style with their child

And that's not even getting into what having an unaddressed childhood disorder can do

Trauma isn't an event, it's a reaction to an event, and is very personal and unique to you, what might traumatize you won't bother someone else, and vice versa. Don't think of it as little and big trauma, because that's not how it works.

Neglect is shown to be equally as damaging to a child as physical and sexual abuse.

I'm pretty sure all of this is cited in this post.

If you browse my blog you'll find that I talk about this next point a LOT. I say this, firmly, not just for you, but for EVERYONE reading.

Don't put a "minimum" on how much someone needs to be struggling to qualify for a diagnosis or help.

Are you struggling?

Yes?

Good enough. Nothing more to be said.

You don't need to be "this" disordered to ride the ride, what do you think disordered looks like, then?

Not only is the mindset often rooted in ableism, but it's a misunderstanding of the course of the disorder, disorder vs disability, something the DSM encourages us to separate the concepts of, and of the dysfunction criteria.

I talk more here.