#drhousekin

𖦹 Name(s): Kade/ID names

✮ Pronouns: He/It (Boyflux)

𖦹 IDS: Gabriel (supernatural), Shawn Spencer (Psych), Fox Mulder (X-Files), Dr. Gregory House (House M.D.), Veronica Sawyer (Heathers), Sirius “Padfoot” Black (marauders vers)

✮ Other kins and info: https://pronouns.cc/@extraterrestriangel

✦ DNI !!

☠︎︎ anti-alterhuman, anti-kin, anti-lgbtq, racist, sexist, anti-xenogender, terfs, proshippers, darkshippers, etc

And yet.

It probably doesnt help that i remember what happened after he died. Everything about that time made me and still makes me sick.

Maybe he was right all along, maybe everyone was and i really am just a coward who hates everyone that buries himself under any distraction he can find but god

I just couldnt handle it

I couldnt handle seeing him withering away as fast as he did i couldnt handle him being gone

his things still smelled like him still and it was sickening it was god awful i hated it i hated being inside i hated not being inside i hated thinking about him and i still hung on to every thought

and then slowly the smell went away and the clothes got dusty and the dishes were cleaned and it was like every trace of him was slowly leaving and it was somehow so much worse

I couldnt take it.

Does that make me a coward? A hypocrite? Both? Probably. I always knew i was at least one of those.

I guess i felt like i had nothing left after it. I was told i did but it just didnt actually feel like something. I mean, i threw away everything for him what was i expecting would happen after he was gone? What am i an idiot? He would say im an idiot i did the exact opposite of what he told me to do. But that was normal wasnt it? Just house being house.

If wilson found out i killed myself he would be so pissed. Actually i wonder if anyone ever found me. Part of me wishes i was part of me wishes wasnt. Did anyone try to resuscitate me? Were they too late? Did they just give up? Were they just too late? Hell if i know. I was already dead. I dont even know if anyone was ever there. Why would they be there anyway? Its not like i ever gave them a reason to check in, you know, unlikeability and all.

Oh well. Wilson if see this, no you didnt.

Well, you probably won't either way. A Wilson might but the chances of it being the one from my timeline are not exactly grand.

— Dr. House #🗣️🔥‼️

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ALVIEEEEEEEEE [insert wolf ripping off shirt image] ALVIE WHERE ARE YOUUUUUU 💔💔💔💔💔💔 COMEBACK PLEA[gets shot 73 times in the chest]

— Dr. House #🗣️🔥‼️