having to find distractions and purpose = so, so hard lmao

I really dont have that many people in my life to talk abt mental health stuff nor that will deeply understand which kinda sucks ;/ ive been relaxed the past couple of days which has been a blessing. mornings are still hard, but everyone hates mornings, right? 

looking at instagram and twitter can be really triggering too, bc im watching ig stories and comparing my life to theirs. like, why is it upsetting me?

i should be impressed and happy with how far i’ve come so far. I just need to remind myself and give myself high fives - i am doing amazing and recovery is difficult. 

its making me the person i always needed to be, a strong and resilient person who knows their worth. 

and i can listen to music and be happy again :) so def making progress

i am on medication, i wasnt expecting nor planning to take anything buttt some important people in my life convinced me to. so im on day 7 of taking citalopram ;/ it’s alright

it feels like i lost a battle within myself - to not take medication, believing i am stronger and more resilient. medication can be used as a tool, to help us on our journey and there is nothing wrong with taking medication!!