#dolesmp

this is just the Vibes i got.

she basically started out alone, with scott cleo and martyn all leaving her.

and while Martyn was trying to get cleo back, pearl chose tilly. she chose herself.

and with renB dying by pearl on accident, pearl being somewhat responsible for smalletho dying to the rods, her saying smallethos names and them dying and killing the homewreckers.

she, by coincidence or not, lead to each of their deaths.

and with martyn and cleo being back together, of course she had to severe them as well.

even if she denied the "demon" rumors then, it became true after all.

If you ever want to see my face again I want to know If you ever get lonely please let me know If you never want to see my face again I'll understand If forever gets lonely take my hand

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Death feels a lot like being snatched from the middle of a crowded room and dropped into the middle of the void. You don't realize how much noise there is to life until it's ripped away. You don't realize how familiar the beat of your racing heart is until it's still.

Jimmy wakes up, as he always does, in an expanse of blackness stretching out in every direction. It's silent, like it always is. Jimmy doesn't like the silence. It unnerves him.

He's not sure if he's the only one who experiences this or not. He's always first to die. He doesn't know why he doesn't just respawn on his home server. Or why he respawns at all, after this.

And this time it wasn't enough for him to just die, because of course he had to kill Tango along with him.

It's like he's a drowning man, fated to die, and all he's done is dragged Tango down in the depths to both of their demises. Tango tried hard, but Jimmy is unsaveable.

The full force of what he's done suddenly hits Jimmy like a freight train, and he doubles over, face in his hands, and sobs. There's no tears, just like there's no heartbeat in his chest. He died to an enderman. An enderman. He's always known he was the worst person to have a soulmate--how many people reacted in horror at the thought of him perhaps being tied to them?--but this just confirms it.

He finishes crying after he's exhausted himself. There's no life left in him anymore.

He uncurls from himself. He's not really standing on anything, just floating. He should look for Tango, just to make sure he's alright. They died at the same time, so maybe he's around here somewhere too.

He might never want to see Jimmy again after this, but the least he can do is look around. Because even after killing his own soulmate, Jimmy just can't imagine staying away. It'd be for his own good if he did. But Jimmy is selfish, and he can't say that it'd be for his own good if he stayed away.

So he looks for Tango. There's nothing to see in this endless void, so he listens. Listens until he hears a disappointed mutter in the distance. He grabs hold of it like a lifeline, and reels himself in.

Tango, it seems, isn't in the midst of an endless black void. Maybe that's just Jimmy's personal limbo.

Tango is back at the ranch. He keeps watch over it still.

Jimmy settles his precense in next to him. They're both there in a not-so-there sort of way. Jimmy won't be able to reach out and touch him. He doesn't even really see him, but he can hear him, feel his presence.

"I'm sorry," he whispers.

Jimmy feels that Tango is startled. "You're still here?" he asks. "It's over. Go home. Go."

"Not without you," Jimmy says. "But...only if you'll have me. I messed up. I made a mistake. I'm sorry."

"It's okay."

"It's not."

"Being dead sucks."

"It does," Jimmy agrees. "Been dead a few times myself, you know." And he knows it's too soon to ask, but his heart is clenching and needs to know, so he does anyway: "Would you forgive me?"

"Sit here for a while," Tango says, instead of answering. "Sit here with me. We don't have to go anywhere yet."

this is their dynamic and i'm not taking criticism. they're besties

3rd life: married, very much bonded together, defended each other, affectionate teasing, when jimmy died scott's grief was so strong that glowing crystals formed around him and he vowed to avenge him. the afterlife was their home.

last life: not together, but they reminisced on their past life. scott never hurt jimmy even when he had several opportunities as boogey.

empires: had a cutesy date, scott had such a hardcore crush on jimmy, was teased about it by his brother (how embarassing), in scott's perfect afterlife they're together.

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