Dec 8, 2020
Elohim - I'm Lost (Official Music Video)
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Elohim - I'm Lost (Official Music Video)
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I’m so tired. I’m trying so hard to improve myself im fed up of constantly being in pain , my head my mind my memories all over the place , ,, nothing feeling real everything feeling dreamlike ,, suddenly not knowing how I got somewhere or who I am or who people are ,, I want the pain and the tiredness and my head to just stop I cry at night just because I want to be normal ;; I’m so tired of it allll I just want to feel fine that’s all I want I don’t want any of this
Should you trust that lion?
1. The yellow lion: yes, yellow will help and protect you provided you are not a threat. Trust the yellow lion with your life 1. The black lion, so as long you are apart of her pride, she will make it her duty to protect you. Trust the black lion and the black lion will trust you 3. The green lion: the green lion is direct and curious, so at least you know what you're getting into when she drags you to observe a deadly species. She warned you, bro. You should of listened. You can trust green 4. The red lion: she will do things with out telling you or at least say that she will do the thing and then immediately do it. Her unpredictableness makes her predictable. You just need to be prepared when she dives too deep without checking the depth. You can trust her to do her own thing 5: the blue Lion: the blue Lion will tell you to relax and give you a nice she also doesn't care about most things she loves to go with the flow. lemonade. Sometimes she doesn't make sense but being around her makes you feel like that'll be alright. Wait out your problems they'll fix themselves. You join blue in a mysterious lawn chair with a cup holder holding a strange liquid. You sit down next to her and sip the lemonade mixed with apple juice. You don't really understand why but that's okay, it's not That bad. You look up and see your problems becoming bigger. Blue tells you not to worry your problems have to get worse to get better. It'll be fine, you just got to wait. So you wait, but your problems keep getting bigger. Don't worry Blue tells you. You check your watch, ten thousand years have passed,m. You feel like you haven't aged a moment while age of twice the amount you lived. All your problems dissolved into the mixture of the worst thing possible. Every one of them combined into the ultimate problem, you are hopeless to stand against. You look over at blue, she doesn't even care she's still siping her lemonade. Blue is the true villain of this story. The universe will fail and Voltron will fall apart because of her. You realize your downfall will be her fault, but also your own. She didn't make you stay, she gave you the will to stay, but you didn't actually Have To. You will leave barely, because blue doesn't care about dying. You leave and reconsider your life. You can trust blue, she seems pretty chill.
When I'm nervous, I can power through. When I'm anxious, I have to breathe and zone out to handle it. When my anxiety is a dick, I zone out and don't do it. When my anxiety is anxious, everything is horrible and I can't breathe, oxygen isn't real.
probably tmi but I don't care so! re: the dissociation post, literally it was the weirdest thing, I woke up from my nap and got in the car and went to practice and on the way I sort of saw my left hand in my peripheral vision and I was just like What The Fuck, like,,,, it just didn't exist, like I could see it and move it and it was objectively a totally functional part of My Body but it just didn't exist and honestly I've spent the entire week feeling like my sense of self is bunched up around my eyeballs but the hand thing was the weirdest shit ever
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you know how you get like three hours of sleep per night for a week or so and you spend the whole time feeling like you're standing an inch to your own left and then you finally get six whole hours of sleep and you're like thank god I've finally stopped dissociating and then you fall asleep in the middle of the day and when you wake up you're TWO inches to your own RIGHT and your left hand doesn't exist
My self-care trick
**If you dissociate often then I would not recommend this method I like to think of my body as separate from Me. That way if I feel like I hate Myself for some decision, I can say: "I need to take care of my Body, She didn't do anything wrong." "These feelings aren't Her fault so She shouldn't have to pay for it." It personally appeals to my sense of nurture but it's definitely not for everyone.
You are of the earth, the air, and the stars. You are of the universe, and the universe is of you. With every moment you experience, the universe experiences itself through you. You are beautiful and amazing, and no moment you are here is a moment wasted. You are so important.