#devinhenderson

So today we found out that we have 6 days left. 6 days.. I thought we'd get more of a warning, but I guess we're built for tougher situations. I just hope you know how much you mean to me and how much I lean on you to make life worth something. Although, these are going to be some of the longest months ever; there's no one else I'd go through this with. I love you. I love you so much.

Today you were called into work early, & although you've only been gone like an hour. I miss you so much. You called me to let me know that your recruiter gave you a date for MEPS but thought it would be funny to say it was your date to leave for boot camp... "I'm going to boot camp either the 1st or the 2nd" you said. I replied with a subtle "oh..that's in like two weeks..." Tears just flooded in my eyes & I know you realized that wasn't a funny joke. All I could think was "I need more time!!" I feel like I say that or think that so often, whether you're going to work or going to sleep, I always feel like I'm reaching for more time with you. You're going to boot camp in at least two months. Two months. I'll blink & we'll be saying goodbye to one-another yet again. But this time, I won't get to hear your voice everyday, or see you through the front facing screen of your camera, no late night calls when I can't sleep,or you calling me to say "just checking in, God I miss you." That's what's going to hurt the most, is not being able to hear your voice for 3 months. Because your voice has been the soundtrack of my life for the past 4 years & honestly I don't remember anything else before I heard it. I don't think I've ever depended on anything more to get me through the day then just hearing you. It's my favorite lullaby, it's better than coffee, the greatest comedy, & biggest eye opener. I could listen to you all day. But my favorite thing about it is that, it's my constant reminder that I'm alive, that we exist, & that every day I have something to fight for. You keep my feet planted so firmly on the ground because I'm not running anywhere unless it's after you. I love you so much. & when I close my eyes, I'll fade away to the memories of your voice saying "I love you" back to me.

I'm so proud of you. I'm so proud to stand next to your everyday, to be the one to hold your hand. I'm proud to be the one who gets to kiss you & be there person you depend on. I look at you & want to yell to the world how wonderful you are. I love you so much & I'm so proud of you